Sheena(:

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2009-09-17T01:03:00.001+08:00

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ST 12 - Puspa. :D

2009-09-12T13:41:00.005+08:00

ST 12 - Puspa. :D

Kau gadisku yang cantik
Coba lihat aku di sini
Disini ada aku yang cinta padamu

Kau gadisku yang manis
Coba lihat aku di sini
Disini ada aku yang sayang padamu

Walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
Sungguh dah ada yang punya
Namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau

Woo, woo, jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo, woo jangan, jangan kau tak kenal cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau hiaukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

Walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
Sungguh dah ada yang punya
Namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau

Woo, woo, jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo, woo jangan, jangan kau tak kenal cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau hiaukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

Jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Woo, woo jangan, jangan kau tak kenal cintaku
Jangan, jangan kau hiaukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

): aku miss him so much.

2009-08-18T14:17:00.008+08:00

i still thinking of you everyday and everynight. i fcuking miss you larhs. you're one tht i love so much and i didnt want let go of you atall. ): i cant control my emotion well. i need to learn how to control my emotion well. Darling, i wish tht you can be mine again. i really hope tht you will be mine again and this time round i not going to lose you again. serious!! i need you badly. all i need is your care and pamper. i do miss your hug every night before i sleep. ): it become a habit of mine to hug you sleep daily. you're th reason tht i breathe. i can survive till now is all because you. you had make my life more lively as before, i can face th world with you again. but it just a short awhile only, and you choose to make me go back to my past again. ): right now, im living in th darkness. it really dark and i dontknow where to go atall. it really making me so lonely without you everyday. Darling, space me some of your time and love again, can? all i know is your love and time only, i dontwant more from you. please dont go, darling. i need you, i want you, i miss you, i love you. tht all i want from you, give me everything tht you can make me feel happy again.th memories tht we had is sweet & sour. he's th one tht i cant describe it atall. iloveyou. (: he made my life more bright and i love th way he dote me. it so sweet. (: th time we spend together had tattoo-ed into my heart. he was th reason why i still holding on. he was th reason why i smile so widely. memories will be locked in my mind and i wont throw it away. serious! th pix we had is in our memories. nobody had see it before, only me and you see it. (: th faces tht we see in each other, nobody could understand or see it. i never thought it will end so soon, i still got words want say it to you but you never give me th chance to say it out. ): i really want you to be my darling forever and stay by my side no matter. i know tht you will stay by my side no matter what happen, you never fail to make me laugh when im down. you're just my drug tht i had addicted to you liao. (: you're th medicine tht can cure my illness. just one kiss from you, my illness all gone. just one hug from you, all my unhappiness is gone. i just want hug you again to wash away all my unhappiness. i had alot of unhappiness right now, i really want hug you! i feel so sick for everything. i need you to come cure me and save me again. ): i want call you DARLING! i feel like shouting your name in-front of my friend and tell them tht "you MARTIN THEAN LEE HAO is th only BOYF tht i want and you will be my DARLING no matter what." D: do you know tht my phone contact list, your name is saved as BigIdiot/Darling. :x i didnt change th name of yours atall. i still keeping you as my darling. (: iloveyou tht for sure. i wont lie about my own feeling. my feeling is true. i dont love anyone but you. i want nobody nobody but you, M. Darling, give me medicine to cure it. i cant stop missing you. you're totally becoming a part of my life right now, i dontknow how am i going to let go of you again. ): it hard for me to let go when i cant. sweetest candy is you, M. you had make me so crazy over you. i want you back again. ): pls, can i had you again? Darling, you will be th only boyf tht i love so much and i will going to love you. everyone can say tht im stoopiid or what, i dont care. cause my heart only have him and his name had tattoo into my heart liao. i always remember everything tht we had before and his name always on my mind. when i sleep, i will think of him and fall asleep. :x he used to say good night to me so tht i can sleep well in th night. (: we're over but i still cant be strong to smile again. Darling, you are always on my mind every second or mintues. i seriously need you to back to my life again, i cant live without you atall. since you leave, i was totally lost and dontknow what to do atall. give me your love and i'll takecares of it. i wont let anyone to touch it. my heart need someone to takecares of it too. Darling, you should know tht my heart always have you to takecares of and now you no longer as my dearest boyf liao. ):

D: my mood so suck.

2009-07-29T15:47:00.008+08:00

hais! i dontknow what happen to me this few days. ): keep bo mood when i reach home. my mood suddenly change till very bad. D: i wish tht i still got him by my side. i missing him so much. i cant even forget about th time tht we had before in past. it keep running through my mind everyday and night.

seriously, it going to took me dontknow how long to forget about him! but i must try my best to forget about him. he was totally took a part of my life liao. i want my life to back not he into my life. Ohpls, you just get out of my life pls! even thought we are over but i dontwant kept you as my boyf again.

sometime things is ain for me to be done but not too over about it. i know is not easy to forget you but i going to try to forget about you in my life. even though your love has got me addicted to it but i got to overcome it so i wont want myself to addicted to your love too deeply.

kindly leave me and leave your voice in my mind too. i dont wish to recall anything again. T.T it really very painful to recall all th past we had during th night time. th msg tht we always used to text each other but i still keep it in my phone memory, i dont dare to delete it so i kept it.

i keep reading th msg you sent me again and again. i cant stop myself from reading th msg we texted. it was so sweet. but i think i got to forget it! fine fine! sheena will be fine soooooooooon. 有一种爱叫做放手. so i will let go of you instead of holding on again.

i know even i hold on on you, it wont have anything happen again. you wont give it a try again. so what th point if i hold on on you even you dontknow want give it a try again. you will say tht it will be like th past before. fine! sheena will be strong larhs! i pray to god tht i wanted you to be my boyf in th past but it happen tht you be my boyf for 2 months plus.

so what if i pray to god again tht i want you to come back my side again, will it happen again? i guess it wont! so nevermind, i will stop praying to god again but i will pray to god tht wish you good luck in everything you doing and good health for you too. this what i can do for you again.

i think my love for you soon or later it will fade aways! after few months, i think i will totally forget about you in my life and my love for you will faded aways. where i fall down, i will get up from where i fall. this time round, i fall badly but i will get up again soon. i wont ask for help again.

i wont beg for help again. i will get up by myself without any help from ppl, serious! i dontwant always rely on other ppl when i fall down, it not a good habit for asking ppl to help you again and again. thanks god for having you as my boyf in th past, maybe you had teach me how to be strong and grow up.

ppl who know me, they know tht i was a spoil kid at home but when you came into my life, i learn how to grow up and be strong. (: M, you are my best boyf i had right now. i guess there is noone going to be my best boyf again, wait till i found someone is right and good to me so i wont be hurt again.

i dontwant to get hurt badly again. seriously, i really afraid of being hurt badly again. im afraid of pain, this type of pain i dont think i can take it agian. once or twice is enough liao. if you want hurt me, hurt me now! i wont say anything or revenge right now. i still very weak to fight back or revenge back. it going to took me few months to heal. time going to heal my wound again but how long will it took to heal my wound again? let see it took how long for me heal, okays? (:

i just want say tht no matter how long am i going to take to forget you, it doesnt matter to me atall. as long as i could forget about you and move on without you again, i will be contented. even if took me 4 ~ 5 years to forget you, i also dont mind. but 4 ~ 5 years is too long to forget and let go of someone. i dontwant be like last time again, took 4 plus to let go of my ex again. during th time i was totally suffer and felt lonely without him tht time now i just want took few months to forget someone.

akucintakau.M (:

2009-07-25T22:27:00.009+08:00

how come my school com and change th font all tht?? and my hse derhs cant. ): blogger got some problem isit? seems like i cant change th font of my post and color! ): when will this problem being solve it? pls solve it faster! thanks.

i know it long since i post an entries right? okays, im here to post. maybe my post will be long so dont blame me. (: at least, i make an effort come and post marhs. it had keep inside my heart for very long time liao. i think is time to say it out then hide it! i tired of hiding th feeling inside my heart liao! i cant take it anymore. i dontcare whether you can see it or not. i just want say it out and dontwant keep it inside my heart liao. nobody understand th feeling tht i felt! really! all can see tht im strong but th true is tht outer of me is strong but inter of me is so upset and lonely. ): i really cant stand it! maybe im ultra talkative when i was with friends, but i wish tht i could be a quiet person and not making much noise with friends but i couldn't! D: when i am alone, i so quiet! why it so hard for me to be quiet when i with friends?? ):):): tian ahhh, can you tell me what should i do next or should i move on? D: let me think back of th past few weeks or months, what i had done okays? *thinking thinking thinking thinking thing*

here is what i had did in past few weeks or months.

1. Study

2. Jobsheet

3. Portfolio

4. Sleep. (:

5. Eating. (:

i trying to be lame, okays? i kind of crazy so ignore it. (: hahahas! soon or later, i going to become insane liao. :D:D:D:D i think i become insane, friends sure will sent me to IMH to stay for some time. at least i stay there, i wont so crazy marhs. -.- LOLS! my days was just study, sleep, eating and do my jobsheet. this my daily routed lorhs. what else i can do? tell me, pls. last time when i was with M, one day of my school day we will meet up together but now i just know go home after school, on com, eat and sleep. hais! i missed th day we had in past. can th past come back again? ): really cant remember anythings. D: sorry! i try to remember but i couldn't!

i wish i could do.

list it out barrhs. it going to be list of thing tht i wish to do. ):

1. Shopping but i really want go shopping one day. ): i didnt really shop for so long since i broke up with M.

2. Get pay faster!!

3. Patch up with ****** again. :x but i know it wont happen.

4. Let go of him if i could.

5. Apat to th life without him.

6. Get back my night life again.

7. I want go back to last time life tht i used to had. (:

8. My skin problem faster recover!

9. Can go back to work as soon as i can. D:

10. Buy more t-shirt. :D

11. Buy new bag. ): i still looking for bag tht i like alot.

12. Buy back th happiness tht i had with him. ):

13. Can i buy him back again?

i really want get back to th past again. when will i get back to my life again? faster heal my wound. once i heal back to th same, i guess i going to be slacking all days long like nobody business. but i wont change because of someone again. never! tht was last time i changed for someone and i really feel hurt when tht person just left me! is suck!! really! i hate it! you know? i really cant tolerate it anymore. without you in my life! Argh, i got adapt it man. soon or later, i going to adapt it and forget about you! i know it hard to forget someone but i going to try hard and forget you! i mean it! serious, sheena this time round going to forget tht someone and never again i turn back to him again! never!!

saya rindu pada kamu, m.(: akucintakau,m. you should know tht i love you so much till i cant let go of you but i got to let go of you. is not easy to let go of someone you truly love so much. but i had to do so even it hard. "love someone is hard but letting of someone is more hard." to forget tht current someone is not easy to forget but it take me alot of time to forget and let go. but saying "akucintakau" is hard to say to someone tht you donteven love but saying it to tht certain someone is easy for me. i wanted to share my life with you, you share your life with me but you choose to let go of this relationship and didnt want hold me back again. you thought tht be your friend is a good things but is not! it just too suck to be your friend again! i hate this feeling of being your friend! i really hate it!! kinda suck! not what i wanted atall. my life started with you but ended with your words! when i was with you, i feel so happy cause i had you to be my boyf but being together not even 3 months and we broke off. being together 79 days, this 79 days we had was laughted and fun being together but seems like we cant being together for longer marhs? it going to 3 months of being together just few week away but you choose to broke off. you're th only one in my heart right now. i dontwant say much here liao.

so i think i should stop typing liao. (: is time to go watch my tv! (: HOHOS! sheena will be back again to post, okays? :D

Addicted - Stevie Hoang

2009-07-13T23:01:00.004+08:00

Title: Addicted
Singer: Stevie Hoang
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Since you went away it's been one year two months

But it just don't seem like yesterday we were still together

Time has passed and things have changed so

Why do I feel this way

Cause you're with somebody else

And I'm with somebody else but

Whenever I think about the love we had

It hurts so bad

Whenever I think about the love we made

I said that I'd be strong

Boy (Girl) I really thought that I'd move on

But still I find myself asking

Do you still think of me like I think about you

Do you still dream of me cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a handsome (chick) and hitting it boy (girl) I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on

If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time

Cause you don't know what you got until it's gone

It's the reason why I'm writing you this song

Boy (Girl) I'm slipping and I don't know what to do

Boy (Girl) I admit it, I'm sick over you

Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way

I should have begged you to stay

Do you still think of me like I think about you

Do you still dream of me cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a handsome (chick) and hitting it boy (girl) I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you

If you ever lost someone you truely love

Let me hear you say yeah

And if you lost someone your truely need

Let me hear you say yeah

Do you still think of me like I think about you

Do you still dream of me cause I can't sleep without you

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

Your love has got me addicted

Said I don't know

When I'm with a handsome (chick) and hitting it boy (girl) I call your name

Said I don't know

When I be with somebody else I push them away

Tell me if time should make a change

Then why do I feel the same

I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you

this song really make me feel like tell him tht i still dream of him and still think of him. i cant really live without him. i kind of addicted to him, his love make me feel so strong. he was th only one tht could make me smile when i in a trouble or what. just one word from his mouth, i will feel happy liao. we always will meet up to see each other but after sometime we didnt. now i want see him again, i want hug him again. had you lost someone you truely need? had you lost someone you truely love? yes, i had lost someone i truely need and truely love. now i here to regret what th point. i can't live without him!~ seriously i still cant live without him even pass one month. how long am i going to pass through this again? is it going took me years to heal again? i dontwant took up my time to heal again. i really need somoene there for me, someone love me like what he always do, somoene care for me like what he always do, someone dote me like everyone doing. but i want him to dote me, he always dote me no matter what. he never say anything or complain about it. i always bully him but he didnt complain about it, i truely love him. when i in love with tht certain one, i will bully him not other. i still cant stop calling you darling. i just want calling you darling in my life and not going to call other darling again. you are th only darling tht i love and i want. i think nobody could replace you in my heart again. (: every night, i think of you. you will always on my mind. only this song i keep playing on my music player. hais~ darling, can you come to my side again? darling, tell me if time could change? darling can you tell me what should i do? i couldn't sleep without you every day. only you can make me go sleep soundly without any problem running through my mind. i want you to be my darling only. do you know i want you as my darling again? i already addicted to you so there is no way to push me away. whenever i with other guy tht trying to get close to me, i just simply push them away. i just want you to get close to me and hug me tight, like what you always do in th past. hugging me tight in your arm is what i always wanted most. i miss th way tht you used to hug me tightly and never let go of it. when you say iloveyou to me, i still remember it on my mind. all your msg tht we used to sent each day, i still keep it in my inbox. i didnt delete any of your msg atall. i keep reading th msg tht you used to sent, i can repeat reading non stop.

BY2 - 我知道 lyrics

2009-06-04T21:41:00.010+08:00

BY2 - 我知道

從來沒想過

不能再和你牽手

委屈時候沒有你

陪著我心痛

一切都是我

太過驕縱

以為你會懂

一直忘了說

我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我

雖然分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以即使到最後

還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

我們都知道彼此心中

其實這份愛沒停過

從來沒想過

不能再和你牽手

委屈時候沒有你

陪著我心痛

一切都是我

太過驕縱

以為你會懂

一直忘了說

我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我

雖然分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以即使到最後

還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

我們都知道彼此心中

其實這份愛沒停過

曾經完整幸福的夢

在腦海裡頭

我多希望你

還在我左右

我知道你還是愛著我

雖然分開的理由

我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過

所以即使到最後

還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我

才會在離開時

閉著眼沒有回頭

答應你我會好好過

不讓這些眼淚白流

this another sonqs tht is nice. (: qo and listen. i quess you will like it too. (: maybe I'll post more sonqs lyrics then writinq anythinq random stuff or what. hahahas ! hmms, i think i'll hardly come bloq to post liao cause i qoinq to start work soon. (: once i start work, i think i qot cash to spend aqain but i qot to save money too. if not, i will be broke everytime when i qot my pay. :x hahahas !! must have savinq if not, i cant buy my stuff aqain. :( i always wait till i qot money then can buy my stuff & you know what? when i qot enouqh of money to buy thinqs, everythinq i want qo buy tht stuff which i wanted for sooo lonq, always out of stock for me. :( how pity am i? hais~! i dontwant be a suay kia lorhs . AHHH! ohs ya, this few days i keep meetinq same ppl. tml i also qoinq to meet same ppl at same place aqain. (: ytd meet lee yun & ritchie at orchard to find job, at orchard is sooo hard to find a job man! -.- lols ! so we went to cine there to find job but in th end we three went to watch movie. :x hahahas! alot of joke and fun we have ytd & today. tml i quess i still have fun & joke aqain. (: should stop write liao. need to rest soon. (:

Chrisette Michele - Notebook lyrics

2009-06-01T16:55:00.008+08:00

(Verse 1)

I'm feeling you, you feeling me

But still we can't be together

I got a feeling

You got these same feelings

Too bad we can't feel them together

I sit on my bed and wonder

How it'd be if you were mine

I think of you like no other

Here's what I do every night...

(Chorus)

Write in my notebook

X's and o's

Beside your name

Only my notebook knows how I feel

My heart is on every page

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

(Verse 2)

Do you have any idea

How hard it is to act like you don't mean a thing and

This chemistry between you & me

I wanna share with everyone (OH!)

All I can do is just write down every emotion I feel

Hopefully one day you'll find out

My love for you is real(So)

(Chorus)

Write in my notebook

X's and o's

Beside your name

Only my notebook knows how I feel

My heart is on every page

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

(Bridge)

So many times I must have loved & lost (I've patched up every one)

So many times I've let love walk by (I've let love go by)

This time's it's going to be different (it's gonna be different this time)

Take my notebook

Read everything in my mind

So I...

(Chorus)

Write in my notebook

X's and o's

Beside your name

Only my notebook knows how I feel

My heart is on every page

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (love a little like)

Oh oh oh oh (feel a little like)

Hey hey (repeat until fade)

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/chrisette_michele/notebook.html

This I how feel for this moment;

I fall in love with this sonq so much. What else I can do when you're not there for me or what, I just take out my notebook and write down my feelinq on it. Sometime I was wonderinq tht are we more like friend or what? I really dont know! Sick of it. This feelinq totally soo suck, you do know about it? Th feelinq is not what I want atall. From now on, I not qoinq to speak any sinqle words. I want be a muted and dontknow how to speak atall. My mouth is too sticky till I cant even open my mouth aqain or to speak aqain. Tired of it. Need a rest from now on. Hais ~ ! I should qo and take my notebook and write down my feelinq. God, can you qrant me somethinq? I just want him to stay by my side only and I dont want much from him. Just want him to love me better. I feelinq so lost at this time moment, who qoinq to quide me aqain? Who qoinq to be th one stay by my side and quide me which paths to choose? Nobody qoinq to quide me aqain, I am really lost. There always somethinq on my mind and dontknow should I or should I not. Is soo confuse about it, I just afraid tht I'll choose wronq aqain and lose someone tht so important to me aqain. Im afraid of waitinq, I dontknow when will it be th riqht time for me let qo aqain. Sometime waitinq for somethinq tht wont have a result, is really very pain & tired. D: People tell me not to wait but I keep waitinq for it. I know tht there will not have an result of it but i just wanna wait and see only. Just let me wait for while before I let qo of it, okays? Hais ~ ! Words tht I heard from people, sometime is really hurt me but i know tht they doinq all this cause they concern about me but then I dontwant them keep repeatinq thinqs tht I dontwant heard at this moment. So many times I must have loved & lost. Do you have any idea tht how hard it is to act like you dont mean a thinq & this chemistry between you & me? I wanna share with everyone, all I can do is just write down every emotion I feel. I hopefully tht one day you'll find out my love for you is real. (: I doinq all this cause I care about it and I dont want lose you atall. I always puttinq a fake smile, when can I puttinq a real smile on it? You say you love me, it make me wonderinq whether you truly love me or you sayinq for fun? I really dontknow about it. Seriously, only my notebook know how I feel about it. My notebook understand me not others. I wish tht my brother is still with me, only he know how I felt. D: and my ahqonq is qettinq apart from me. Only he can truly understand me & what I need. Noone understand me, only ahqonq do. ahqonq always will stay by my side when I needed him but now I think nobody can replace ahqonq aqain. I cant find anyone to replace my ahqonq & my brother atall. D: one non-livinq thinq can understand me, tht is my notebook. I have alot more to write down on my notebook aqain. Bloq is just for me to post whatever I like on here only but bloq never will understand my feelinq atall. Hais ~ !

im back to post aqain . :D

2009-05-04T13:41:00.017+08:00

current mood : empty & lose .

{♥♥♥♥}maybe my mind is empty , my words is less , my heart is dyinq , my feelinq for you still th same as before. but i was lost in a darkness place, i was afraid at tht moment cause is too dark. before you came & save me, i was totally lost in a darkness place where i cant see any shadow or liqht. darlinq, all i need is just you, you're my everythinq do you know tht?

but who knows what really happen lately ? i always wonderinq should i or should i not ? i really dontknow what shall i do next ? which one should i take ? which one is th riqht one for me to choose ? i really dontknow . somethinq have been on my mind for so lonq & i dontknow what should i dooooooooo ? maybe he is true to me ? maybe he not true to me ? maybe his words is just a lie to me ? i quess i qoinq to have a niqhtmare soon . this few days th text is less with him , idontknow what he really busyinq with ? i not qoinq to bother about it . maybe he have chanqe ? or maybe is i chanqe ? who can come and help me ? who can really understand what i thinkinq ? who can really knows what i wanted ? who who who who ?? nobody could really understand me ! nobody nobody !! there is nobody really understand me !! hais ! just fcuk off larhs !! noone understand me , noone know what i wants . hais ! everythinq seems like chanqinq, idontknow which is real or which is fasle? everythinq is not same as before, i used to had everythinq done in awhile now is took me so lonq to be done. what really happeninq? maybe i th one who chanqinq? i really dontknow. i just wish tht time could just stop at th moment where everythinq was still th same. D:

sick of it!

i just want him to stay by my side for 24/7 but he in ns . ): darlinq, you th only one tht i want riqht now. i qoinq to stick with you & not lettinq qo of you aqain. you're too important to me liao. D: just stay by my side for this moment & spend your time with me. (: imissyou, darlinq. you're th only one tht i can rely on riqht now, darlinq. so dont leave me for this moment cause i cant afford to lose you. you're just like someone in my life tht i will never lose you or let qo of you. you're my everythinq riqht now so i'll hold on tiqht & dont leave aqain. maybe th last time, i left cause of some reason but this time i know what i want and what i cant really live without. (: after some reflection, i qet to know what is love mean & what i need th most for this moment or for this relationship to last. to know what love mean is not easy thinq as you thouqht. love is th harder thinqs to be understand in life. trust is th most important role tht play in relationship. maybe last time all my relationship donthave trust in tht why didnt last so this time i will try to make this relationship to last. (:

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everyone want me to study well for my studies . yarhs , i will study well for this year and try to qet into poly . (: so dont need to worry about it . hehess ! my brother really concern about me and my study even thouqh he really now inside there but he'll out after 3 years isn't ? so i qot to prove to him tht i doinq well with my studies . i dontwant him to worry about me . all want me to qet into poly & have a diploma but riqht now, my mind is totally blank & dontknow what should i do for my project . AHHH ~ !!! this cominq monday, i must submit my mini project && i still qot alot thinq haven finish yet. HAIS ~ !

i feel so confuse . x.x

2009-04-27T13:48:00.010+08:00

current mood: CONFUSE & TIRED !

i feelinq soooooo confuse riqht now . what should i do man ? any qhost or soul out there to quide me & tell me what should i do ? D: i feelinq so tired nowadays , idontknow why . feel like qivinq myself a LONG BREAK !! but i cant . currently havinq alot project cominq . when can i finish all th project ? my mind soooo blank & idontknow what should i do lorhs . ): haiis ! ! ! i want shut my ear , my mouth & eyes . i dont feel like heard any sinqle words from him cause im struqqlinq . D: i dont want see you leave me atall , im afraid tht you'll leave me without sayinq anythinqs . i cant live without you riqht now , i need you soooo badly then anyone do . maybe you're th closer person in my life riqht now . i can lose everythinq but not you . you're soo important to me . imissyou sooo badly . past few days , i just meet you now i qoinq to meet you aqain . i'll qo crazy lorhs . D: your words maybe very sweet but sometime your words will hurt . everytime i thinkinq of you non stop . :D i wish i can huq you to sleep but i cant . :( sad-ed , cant huq you to sleep . hais ~ ! you already tattoo-ed into my heart liao so i not qoinq to let you qo liao . i'll remember th words tht you say to me before , you wasn't a qood quy but i still love you as who you are not what i want you to be . maybe you're handsome but i dont mind it cause i love your person not your looks . maybe you not rich but i also dont mind it , i not those qirls tht love quy's money . i not those qirl see money as a important thinqs in my life . i used to be a li'l princess at home & always have money come to my pocket but not now . im poor qirl , ok ! as poor as you . :D we are poor ppl so dont say tht you not rich infront of me , i also not rich man . zzzz !!! i love th way you are so i also dont want you to chanqe to th person tht i wanted . be yourself can liao .

could you space me some of your love ? i need your love & i want you to love me . let me be th special one in your heart & let me stay in your heart forever .

could you space me some of your time ? i just need you to spend a li'l while with me & i'll be happy . i dont need you to space all your time with me .

could you care for me more ? i just like th way you always care for me , th way you always concern about me & concern about what i doinq . :D

could you dote me more ? i like th way you dote . i want you to dote me like a li'l kid only . :x want you dote me , it make me like a kid . :x

could you stay by my side everyday & every niqht ? i think is impossible lorhs . D: cause you only can pei me awhile then after tht you qoinq back to bunk aqain . D: hais !

could you huq me tiqht & dont let qo ? i like th way you always huq me in your arm . i hope i can sleep in your arm when you huqqinq me . ): just huq me tiqht & dont let qo cause i'll huq you tiqhtly & wont let you qo . :x when you huq me , i was wonderinq how lonq i can huq you tiqht . i wish i can huq you till th niqht fall when im sleepinq , i'll be happy . :D

i'll edit my post aqain when i reach home . :D now in school so cant post much man ! just want to say tht i miss him badly . sheena will be back to post , kays ? stay tune uhs . :x hahahas ! i'll try to update offern if i can uhs . i cant promise tht i will do post offern uhs . my portfolio is my important thinqs tht i need to do . i need some idea for my portfolio . anyone can qive me idea ? hahahas ! if you qot idea to share with me about my portfolio , pls do comment me on my comment box . i'll try to reply th comment derhs . :D

i feelinq so suck riqht now

2009-04-18T19:37:00.006+08:00

currently mood : suck like hell man !

im back to update my bloq aqain . :D i know is lonq since i had updated . im busy with my stuff man ! th past 3 weeks , i was busy workinq & now im back to school for study after my hoilday . (: hahahas ! today my mood was totally suck then other days lorhs ! qrrr ! all i know is tht my heart is totally damaqe badly . when i saw couple at outside && all th couple tht i saw look so sweet , i kind of jealous man ! what is love really about it ?what is love mean ? anyone can tell me what is love ? i just want know about it ! maybe i dont need a boyf or i need a real man ? i really dontknow ! haiis ~~ ! who can understand me ? who really can understand what i want ? tired of it ! everythinq chanqe riqht now . i miss my qan ahqonq . we used to work toqether at donut factory && toqether knock off then qo home toqether . th lauqhter tht we two always had , where have it qone to ? th fun && joke tht we had in th past , now where is it ? he always be there for me when i need a shoulder or listeninq ear , he will stay by my side to listen to my naqqinq all tht but now where had it qone to ? last time he'll be th one tht accompany me but now where is he ? he always peii me sms && chat with me on msn but now i didnt saw him online liao , i really lost riqht now . he th only one tht will comfort me when im down . but he always qet bullied by me && qet scolded by me when he did wronq thinq or what . i just like th way we are in th past . in th past , only we two are so close to each other . sometime , ppl thouqht tht i && him is couple but we are not . we are just friends only . th way i talk to him && th way he talk to me , i just miss it . haiis ~~ ! all are past but can th past stop there ? i wish i can qo back to th past aqain but i cant . :( ahqonq , you tell me what should i do ? i now havinq problem about relationship . last time he always have problem with his relationship , i was th one to tell him what to do now his turn to tell me what should i do man ! i just cant believe tht thinqs tht around me had chanqed , so fast . thinq is chanqe , time is movinq faster . th fun tht we used to have in th past , where is it now ? where ? i cant find past back tht we always share . haiis ! i always will remember th memories tht we had in th past toqether when we are workinq toqether & th time we used to spent toqether i'll always remmeber in my heart . this time round im qoinq to be myself aqain , not qoinq to chanqe my attitude or what for anyone else . i just want be myself . i love niqht life but i cant have continue my niqht life due to study man !! AHHHHH ! i qot upcominq proqram to be done aqain . i quess this round , i cant finish my project barrhs . cause i qot alot of works didnt finish it man ! -.- qame over for me . kind of tired lorhs . x.x

I hate ppl rip thinq from my bloq man !! FCUK !!

2009-04-06T03:15:00.002+08:00

sandra . even thouqh you're my mei but you should not copy sentence from my bloq man !! -.- "smilinq is qood , i wont cry anymore . i'll smile more && i wont cry for you , i miss your voice & everythinq tht belonq to you ." i wrote this is for my lover to see it not for you to copy it man !! RAWRS !! maybe i too kind to you isit ? tht why you want copy it ?? never see before i anqry with you horhs ?? never see i scold ppl before horhs ?? i very nice isit ?? too nice so tht you must copy thinq in my bloq isit ?? ohs pls !! qet your own idea && creative larhs . everyone do have creative so better use yours && dont copy ppl creative larhs . cb !! this sentence is i think of it && im th owner of this . you dont have th riqht to copyriqht ppl's stuff on th bloq . everythinq i wrote is copyriqhter , do you know ? never ask my premission & yet you write in your bloq so shiiok horhs ? even thouqh i didnt online or check my bloq , tht doesnt mean you can copy it . D: i really hate ppl rip my stuff even they never ask my premission . you think tht th sentence sound really qood but you should not copy it !!! you can create your own one not copyinq any one man !! fcuk larhs horhs . i qive you one week time to remove tht from your bloq . if not , im sorry man !! better come my bloq and read this post larhs .

A sonq tht remind of you . :(

2009-02-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

Brown Eyes

Sanq by Destiny's Child .

Remember the first day when I saw your face ?

Remember the first day when you smiled at me ?

You stepped to me and then you said to me

I was the woman you dreamed about .

Remember the first day when you called my house ?

Remember the first day when you took me out ?

We had butterflies , although we tried to hide it

And we both had a beautiful night .

The way we held each other's hand

The way we talked , the way we laughed

It felt so good to find true love

I knew right then and there you were the one

CHORUS

I know that he loves me 'cause he told me so

I know that he loves me 'cause his feelings show

When he stares at me , you see he cares for me

You see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

And he's missing me if he's not kissing me

And when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

Remember the first day , the first day we kissed

Remember the first day we had an argument

We apologized and then we compromised

And we haven't argued since

Remember the first day we stopped playing games

Remember the first day you fell in love with me

It felt so good for you to say those words

Cause i felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hand

The way we talked , the way we laughed

It felt so good to fall in love

And i knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feeling show

When he stares at me , you see that he cares for me

You see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

And he's missing me if he's not kissing me

And when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

I'm so happy , so happy that you're in my life

And baby now that you're a part of me

You showed me

Showed me the true meaning of love

And i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so

I know that he loves me cause his feelings show

When he stares at me , you see that he cares for me

You see how , he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious

I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

And he's missing me if he's not kissing me

And when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

He look at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

I really love this sonqs . :( i hope he will see this post . i miss him ~

i'm here to post (:

2009-01-19T15:08:00.008+08:00

is time for me to post somethinq about it liao . my bloq had left empty for so lonq liao , now is time to return to my bloq and post thinqs liao . (: is since th last date tht i had bloqqer till now , i think is very lonq aqo liao . :( because i dont have much time to post thinq on bloq so wait till now then i post it . sorry about it . (: hahas ! i qot picture to upload and let you all see it barrhs . (: wait and see arrhs . hahahahs !!

i qot alot of picture need to be upload on th 20 Jan . but then i dont have time to do so !!! AHHHH , i so busy with my study . 2nd year liao but i must chiionq arhs . x.x hais ! plus somemore , this few week i wasn't in a qood mood . i dontknow why . :( CNY is over .

about my CNY celebration ; hais ! i keep lose money . im sooo sua larhs . nb ! i so anqry about it larhs . i dont want qamble anymore larhs . never win money atall . i lose all my money larhs . FCUK larhs . th rest of it , i really didnt qo out or what larhs . forqet it man ! my anqbao also suck man . ok ok , i should shut up and dont talk about CNY . x.x

seriously i dont have a qood mood atall . idontknow why . i keep on mood swinq . :( who can help me ? T_T i keep recall alot of th memories we had in past , andy . i wish you will be here with me . Valentines Day is cominq soon ~ i am sure tht i wont be qoinq out barrhs cause i will be sawinq alot of couple walkinq pass me . :( i will sad . haiis ! forqet it larhs , all are past . i quess i wont be attach anymore . my own feelinq still unstable . i dontknow when will i be happy aqain ? sinqlehood is my life from now on . pls , all those couple just qet lost infront of me . i dont wish to see any of th couple kissinq , huqqinq or what infront of me . :( i swear i will be cryinq if i saw it . i need someone to love me . maybe i mind look but who dont mind look ?? everyone mind look . dont say you dont mind look or what ? i dont believe it . if your boyf or qirlf is uqly , will you want to brinq her out or will you accept him/her as your loves one ?? i should stop talkinq about it . who want spent their time with me on valentines day ?? just spent your valentines day with me ? x.x AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH . i hate valentines day alot , dontknow why . :( haiis !!!!!!!!

MONEY SUCK !!

2009-01-18T14:01:00.005+08:00

money suck !

money really kill me now . everythinq need money but my brother not around with me now . how am i qoinq to enjoy my life without money ?? when i was outside with friends to shoppinq and im starinq at ppl tht can spend money on what they want but me cant . really i dontknow what to do to qet tht thinq i wanted . maybe i should steal it ? i really dontknow about it . only my brother willinq qive me money tht i wanted to want it so much . if i told him tht i want a GUCCI wallet , maybe he'll buy for me . GUCCI wallet is just a dream to me now . if you qot money then can talks , money kill me only . so what , if you all had th money to buy stuff you all wanted . i want thinq also dont have larhs . biq fcuk arrhs , money ? money , just kill me larhs ? everyone is so keens of havinq money . does money can qive you happiness ?? does money can help you qive birth baby ? money doesnt qive you happiness or what . so much money for what ?? qot money can look down on ppl isit ? qot money then you can be proud of it arrhs ? even thouqht now im poor like fcuk , i can see all my friends true colors liao larhs , some of them just take me as a ATM machine lorhs . when i qot money to qo out and enjoy myself , they'll just act like they dont have money to buy thinqs or eat . and they will just stare at me . nb !! when i really broke , they just leave and dont even contact me . is tht called friends or im their ATM ? if i rich , i quess all those friend tht took for me qranted will come back to me and take me qranted derhs . so what ? took me qranted ? i took you as idiot who took me as qranted . come and take me as qranted more and i'll treat you like an idiot only . money now to me is nothinq larhs , money kill me . i just want a pure life tht dont talk much of money . everyone just want money ! money now so hard to earn it and ppl just care about money and forqet about friendship , family and relationship . some ppl still can backstab their own friend or family just of money . money really make ppl crazy about . i hate money larhs . i really hate it lorhs , money . -.-

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

2009-01-03T17:19:00.015+08:00

woooooooooo . im back (: hahas !!

on 31 dec .
meet up with rei , xiuzhen , edwin & cindy at cindy @ 5pm in cityhall mrt there . (: i misses them alot . (: it was so lonq then can meet up with them cause everyone is busy with works or study . some of them is half workinq and study but then i was th only one who is rottinq at home nothinq to do . -.- hahas !! went to drink vodka , tiqer beer and one more drinks but i dontknow what drink is tht . th taste of th drink so eee !! i dont like tht drink perfer vodka more . :x hahas !! i really like vodka alot than other drinks . -.- lolls !

on 1 jan & th rest of dates .

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE (:

really doinq nothinq at home lorhs . rottinq at home for one whole day if i wronq . -.- nothinq to talk about 1 jan . i went out with friends or stay at home and play audition but i play audition until i want sleep liao . not interested in audition liao . hahas !! school had reopen liao . my GPA really very suck lorhs . i qot D for one of my course and my GPA really like shit lorhs . i qot a B and C for other two course . i think now is time to chionq my studies liao cause my GPA soooooo suck larhs . -.- i must chionq everythinq to qet a GPA 3.2 and above . my qan mummy told me tht i must qet into poly if not , she qonna to scold me like hell . lolls !! i hate it . x.x *TI KONG AHHHH , HELP ME !* lalalas !! (: i went to watch th twliqht with my qan mummy cause i qot two free movie ticket . lalalas ! so i ask her qo watch with me . (: i want watch th BOLT !!! i think tht movie had finish liao . -.- i should qo internet and watch it liao . i want watch alot of movie but i dont have money to watch it !!!! i want free movie ticket , pls ! i cravinq for movie ticket for free or someone treat me watch it lorhs .

I cant sleep this few days . :(

2008-12-27T04:39:00.010+08:00

i dontknow what th reason for me not sleepinq well at all . i dontknow what wronq with me . x.x i wish i could fall sleep now . i cant take it anymore . :( i really tired of it . hais ! i just now went to meet haohao . (: we're just like friends . even thought we was boyf/girlf tht was past , now we just friends . he still like th past which i know him , a joker and he's my entertainment . only he can entertain me . (: i like th way when he entertain me but not as my boyf . sorry to say tht . :x hahas ! if you put martin , elson and haohao infront and let me choose , i can tell you tht maybe i'll choose martin cause he's th type tht i like . i like tall quy . (: maybe im too short and need a boyf to be taller than me . at least , i can feel protected barrhs . idontknow why . i can said tht last time i do mind look but then now i dont care about look cause look doesnt matter for me anymore . (: haiis ! now im sinqlehood . maybe sinqle suit me ? dontknow ! really wish to be loved by someone tht really dote me and someone which i also like derhs . is really hard for me to accept other quy barrhs . cause of him , i really lost and i dontknow what should i do riqht now or later on . i really dontknow what i qoinq to do next . my mind is really makinq me lost . how i wish tht i qot a boyf tht will love me , dote me , care for me now . :( all are just a dream in my mind . when will it happen ? i dont dare to wish for it at all . im scare i'll qet hurt aqain and aqain . do you know th pain in my heart ? do you know how hurt it can be ? do you know ?? hais ! who will even care for me ? maybe nobody even bother to care for me ? who will know what will happen next ? who will know who'll leave th world first ? who knows ? only heaven can make th decision for us barrhs . my fate , i dont even want control . let heaven control for me barrhs . if really qot th fate and let me meet my MR RIGHT , i'll be happy . (: someone tht really can love me as who am i . if qot someone love me , maybe i'll feel so crazy about it . i really want be loved by someone . i want know th feelinq of beinq loved by someone . really i dontknow th feelinq of beinq loved by someone at all cause i had forqet about th feelinq of it . beinq huqqed in his arm when i need him . beinq kissed by him when im down or im crazy . i really dontknow how it feel for years barrhs .

in th past , i do have a brother which will care for me and dote me . but now nobody can replace my brother . :( i really miss my brother , who know ? nobody know what happen to my brother . now i know who love me th most and dote me th most liao but then i didnt cherish him even he was around me . (Korkor , i do miss you . i really want you to around me and brinq me qo out . T_T) only my brother will qive me money when i dont have . yarhs , i do have parent but then my parent wont even qive me money to spend . only my brother qive me money to spend when i dont have enouqh money to qo out with friends all this . when i wanted somethinq , my brother will buy and qive me if he qot money . he really dote me too much . i was spoilt by my brother cause i take thinqs tht i need it or i dont need it for qranted . :( my hse is full of my thinqs . eq : my cloths , shoes & more . hais ! now i started to learn not to take thinqs tht i dont need at all for qranted . just buy thinqs which i really need it . like my laptop and other which i'll be needed in one more years or what . korkor , by th time you're out tht time , i had qrow up and be an younq adult liao . maybe i'll be more happy or what barrhs . younq adult is qettinq near to me liao . when im 18 tht time , is time for me had fun all this but then you promise me before tht you'll brinq me to clubbinq all this when i reach 16 . but you didnt brinq me qo but i didnt blame for it cause maybe you're too busy or what . i really dont understand about clubbinq life , why everyone love clubbinq ? is clubbinq so fun ? is really wastinq money on thsoe clubbinq . qo there drink and dance until it close . korkor , i waitinq for you to come out and qo shoppinq with me . (:

BUSY !

2008-12-19T16:24:00.005+08:00

im back to post . (: hahas !

ps . this few weeks , i wont at home . all th way at outside . (: past few weeks , it seems like i everyday ton outside lorhs . x.x wow !! soon or later , i'll be a SLACKER like my HPY . :x tht cause me now cant sleep well everyday liao . -.- haiis !! busy . hahas ! plus somemore , this few days i fall sick aqain . x.x there is alot of thinqs is happeninq around me so i wont say it out . (: and i always stay at home playinq audi lorhs . x.x

about love ;

tired of relationship . (: i can say tht i dont wish to talk about love anymore cause im sick of it . i wont say liao . it really very tired of it lorhs . :x lalalas !! sinqle is rock my life . (: i be sinqle then havinq boyf. sial . hahas !! havinq boyf , sometime qot qood and bad to me . :x better dont tell about it . (: hahas !!

about life ;

is like i everyday slackinq at home lorhs . wtf !! i qoinq to rot at home until 31 dec . :( this th life tht i qot now . x.x plus somemore , i keep fall sick easier . hais ! :/ i so weak . x.x this few months , i had fall sick dontknow how many times liao larhs . 2oo9 is cominq soon and i dont want fall sick aqain . x.x 31 dec , i need to qo out with my friends and countdown toqether lorhs . x.x *pray to qod , "I DONT WANT FALL SICK AGAIN AND AGAIN . AND PLS BRING TH SICKNESS AWAY FROM ME , IM AFRAID OF IT LIAO " .* hahas !!

about him ? ;

okok , i should say tht i qonna let him qo and i wont put any feelinq on him anymore . plus i wont cry anymore . tht is my last time to cry liao . i must promise myself not to cry anymore . (: i'll smile then cry . maybe i just wonderinq what i had did to him and why he must do this to me barrhs . but i wont cry larhs , bodoh . hahas !! think of th past , i felt tht im so useless . (: kind of useless . hahas !

thinkinq of him badly . :(

2008-12-04T12:07:00.009+08:00

ellos , im back to post aqain . (:

past few days of my life .

seriously larhs , i dontknow what should i post lorhs . thinq comes around , qoes around . x.x maybe my life is just an empty bottle lyinq around th stress ? hais ! idontknow larhs . ytd i had one whole day of sleepinq at home . (: my daddy didnt wake me up or what . so shiiok arrhs . :x my brain now is kind of empty larhs . x.x but then i seriously want a job badly . i need a job riqht now . i want money . who qot lobanq for jobs ? hais ! i wanted a job badly and i can earn alot of money too . :x at least , th pay can for me to shop and spend for months or weeks larhs . hais ! i need a job larhs . job !!! ~~~ now i havinq hoilday but then i need job larhs . x.x AHHH , who can intro job to me ? th job at least i can slack barrhs . :x hahas ! on th tuesday , i meet my hpy and pei her qo eat lorhs . then we two went to a place which is 24hrs shoppinq . i really qot a place for you all who love to ton or what , if you really want qet thinq at midniqht like food or perfum or what larhs , you all can qo to mustafa(idontknow how to spell th name & idontknow whether is correct or not larhs .) hahas !! after qo there then we all went to slack . (: we slacked at other ppl's hse for one whole days . x.x lalalas ! i was toooooooooo tired so i fall asleep larhs , cant blame larhs . cause i wake up in th morninq and qo school just for exams only then after tht all th way , i didnt sleep lorhs . x.x ahahas !! my hse there very noise larhs . x.x how am i qoinq to play my qame well while my next door soo noise larhs ?? how arrhs ? blast my speaker ? i wont blast my speaker derhs . later speaker spoil , who qoinq to buy new one for me ? hahas !! :x lalalas !

my brain now totally in a blank . i dontknow what should i post or what lorhs . x.x ohmytian larhs , my brain not workinq for today . x.x hais ! (my brain arrhs , today dont lazy marhs . is time to work liao . cannot sleep liao .)

* You're Just an EMPTY shell of mine .

seriously , i dontknow why i will miss him ? hais ! thinkinq of him badly riqht now . hope tht i could forqet him soon . forqet about me . if you want hurt me , hurt me faster . :( my days is like an empty shell lorhs . what is true friend ? who can tell me ? hais ! i dontknow larhs . just passed by a bloq tht sayinq about true friend . i just wonderinq what should i do for now ? hais ! tired of it larhs . i really tired of it larhs . tired of everythinq around me . i wish i could sleep forever and dont wake up at all . i wish i can could tht lorhs . my mind is full of him riqht now . i wish i could meet him riqht now . x.x stop my daydream larhs . he wont even bother to msq me or what . what th point of me to text him or what ? hais ! every niqht i keep miss him , why i miss him ? why ?? !! ~~~ martin arrhs , you made me miss you and thinkinq of you . why ? hais ! even thouqht we just friends but i miss you like crazy . hais ! really dontknow what to do larhs . feel like typinq out one sonq lyrics and let you see it . x.x th sonq title is "Forqet about me by little bit" . sorry , i dontknow how to put sonq into a post . x.x hahas !! but you can qo imeem.com and find barrhs . slowly find arrhs . (: hahas ! tht sonq is nice . really very nice . when you just break off , you listen to this sonq . you sure will cry barrhs . everytime i just listen to this sonq , my heart feel so painful and i wanted to cry but i cant . cause i must be stronqer and not to cry aqain . (: i'll smile instead of cryinq . smile is better than cry . th more i cried is just a show tht how painful inside of me only . i cried not because of what , is because i cant qet you as my boy . :x now i wont cry anymore . (: when will i qet my lover ? my qan mummy now is attached but i not . i still sinqle for sooo lonq . x.x maybe sinqle is what i can do and my life forever is to beinq sinqle ? hais ! i dontknow larhs . i want to put your BIG BIG name on my bloq but i think better not barrhs . (: hahas !! MARTIN ? o.o MARTIN is tht quy i miss . :x omq omq , i had write his name on my post . hahas !! lalalas !! just wrote it for fun , can ? :x hahas ! NANA is just a nick of mine . NANA , tht's not my name . (: NANA do sound very close to you . but only my close friend or friend , they will call me NANA more than call me SHEENA . (: for those not close to me , pls dont call me NANA , just call me SHEENA will do . hahas ! :x TIN , imissyou larhs . i really missed you larhs . :x you suck larhs , TIN . hahas !! am i crazy ? o.o pls sent me to IMH soon . i really crazy liao . sent me over there and let me stay there , ok ? hahas ! i quess tht IMH nurse or doctor wont welcome me to stay there cause i'm crazy till th maxx . they cant cure me . x.x hahas ! i need a place to stay at and to cure my CRAZYNESS larhs . why not , they can qive me a brainwash larhs so tht i will forqet about all th unhappy past . (: brainwash for me , is better then let me stay there larhs . hahas ! lalalas !!

Forget about me - Little Bit

Hmm

Whoaaa

Oohhh

Yeahh

you said it wasn't

gonna be like

it was before

then it happened again

pushing me back

out th door

thought it would be

for real this time

love me forget

about the signs

so now what do i do

now, tht i know

tht we're through

wish tht i

could move on

can't let go

it's too strong

just like tht

and then you're gone

is this how

you wanted it to be

everything you had to say

sent th tears

right down my face

now im trying to escape

the misery

[chorus:]

why dont you love me

th way i loved you

it feels so crazy

cause i dontknow

what i did to you

if you're gonna hurt me

then do it quickly

cause im tired of crying

if you dont wanna

stick around

then , baby

forget about me

too late , sorry

i didnt even

have th chance

you said you were happy

baby

i dont understand

gave you everything

you asked for

and was ready

to give you a lot more

i would've given you

th world

right in th palm

of your hand

wish tht i

could move on

cant let go

it's too strong

just like tht

and then you're gone

was this how

you wanted it to be

everything you had to say

sent th tears

right down my face

now im trying to escape

th misery

[chorus:]

boy

my heart was true

and tht you cant deny

dont be a fool

and walk away

from all th lies

it's up to you

cause heaven knows

i've tired

tell me

you're still in love

yeahhh

ohh

[chorus]

forget about me

i really loved you ....

IM SICK !

2008-11-23T14:08:00.002+08:00

im back to post aqain . (: hahas !!

about my life .

im sick riqht now . havinq hiqh fever . 39.5ºC . AHHHH !! my head now very painful and my body achinq . x.x haiis !! ytd i was havinq fever liao , ytd is 38.8ºC lorhs . haiis !! ytd i went to ride bicycle with my qan mummy and didi . di came late so mummy and me rent bicycle to ride around while waitinq for him to come . (: we rent 2hrs of bicycle only and after di reach pasir ris interchanqe , mummy and me ride over to th internet look for him . we sit at interchanqe for awhile first larhs , after tht we ride back to pasir ris there but heaven not in qood mood larhs . while we ridinq half then raininq lorhs . wtf !! tian not happy lorhs . x.x hahas !! soo we return bicycle and walk over to downtown there to rest first . hahas !!

about my study . :(

tml is my deadline for two mini project lorhs . one is 2D mini project and one is packaqinq . tml packaqinq must presentation infront of class . :( tml how am i qoinq to school if i still havinq hiqh fever ? :( i think i sure fail for my 2D & packaqinq mini project lorhs . then one more is my print & web mini project also qoinq to reach th deadline of it liao . haiis !! im deadinq . :(

my life is suck without them . :(

haiis ! imisshim . :( bendan & i had a quarrel barrhs . he didnt msq me and i didnt msq him too . cold war barrhs . hais !! fine fine . i sick and i dont have th mood to joke barrhs . pissed off easily . ytd martin msq me while i playinq audi at lan . i thouqht who msq me at first but then i saw is his msq . (: imisshim lorhs . AHHHHHH !! texted msq with him awhile only then he never reply liao . LOLLS !! always like tht derhs , him . :x i now havinq hiqh fever but nobody care about me . :( i die better riqht ? haiis !! i wanted to qo see doctor but my daddy mai qive me money to see doctor . 39.5ºC or above is not a joke lorhs . if really fever until my brain damaqe better larhs . like this i will die soon and earlier larhs . mini project soo stress for me liao . how am i qoinq to continue with my mini project larhs ? hais !! parent and me nowadays keep have some arque . haiis ! kind of hate it larhs . they just thouqht of them and never spare th feelinq for me larhs . wtf larhs !! i dont want talk about my parent larhs . i miss my brother alot . x.x hope tht my brother is riqht here with me now . so tht he will brinq me qo out all this . i know my brother dote me alot but sometime i make him disappointed . *my brother is not dead larhs , cb .* dont ask th reason of it larhs . some of my friend know what happeninq larhs .

QUIZ ; for those who had been taqqed . (:

2008-11-17T19:31:00.007+08:00

*just type out all th question of th quiz larhs . and post into your bloq and answer th question 1 to 37 barhs . *
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The quiz start here . (:

1. The person who tagged you is ? - Jeslyn . (:

2. Your relationship with him/her ? - HaoPengYou .

3. Your 5 impressions of her , - friendly and slacker . :x

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you . - Nothing ? lolls !

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you , - No have .

6. If she/he become your lover , thing he/she has to improve will be ? - I'm straiqht dey .

7. If she/her become your enemy , you will ? - Whack her one time when i saw her but is impossible . (:

8. What is it you want to tell her now ? - Miss her . lolls !

9. Your over all impression of her is ? - A not bad haopenqyou tht i had barrhs . (:

10. How do you think the persn around you will feel you ? - Not sure dey .

11. The characters you love of yourself are ? - Lame & crap around with friend (:

12. On th contrary , the characters of you hate yourself are ? - simi lj lai derhs ?

13. The most ideal person you want to be is ? - More mature barrhs . :x

14. For ppl tht care and like you , say something to them , - Miss you (:

15. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know their feel abour you .

1. Ahmin

2.ChaiErn

3. Eleanor

4. Jaslyn

5. JieYing

6. Josephine

7. Khairul

8. SiJin

9. XiuZhen

10. ZhiYuan

16. Who is no.6 having relationship with ? - My sweetheart . (:

17. Is no.9 a female or male ? - Female .

18. If no.7 & no.10 get together , will it be a good thing ? - LOLLS !! they ain't gay larhs .

19. What is no.2 studying about ? - DMD (Digital Media Design)

20. What was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ? - Few days aqo or weeks barrhs .

21. What kind of music band does no.8 like ? - I think is feiluhai and more barrhs .

22. Does no.1 has siblings ? - Yarhs , 1 li'l brother . (:

23. Will you woo no.3 ? - Yup but next life . (:

24. How about no.7 ? - Huhs ?! What you means ?

25. Is no.4 single ? - No , she married (:

26. Whatis the surname of no.5 ? - Ng (:

27. What is a hobby of no.10 ? - Ooops , i notsure about it .

28. Does no.5 & no.9 get along well ? - Omg , They are stanger .

29. Where is no.2 studing at ? - ITE West (AMK)

30. Talk about something for no.1 , - She's a crazy girl when go out but come to study or what , maybe she will get stress up . (: but i hope she wont be soo stress up with things .

31. Have you tried delevoping feeling for no.8 ? - She's my ex secondary school classmate , we had spent 4 years together in secondary school liao .

32. Where does no.9 live ? - She stay around TPY . (:

33. What colour does no.4 like ? - OhShit ! I not sure :x

34. Are no.1 & no.5 best friends ? - No man .

35. Does no.1 have any pets ? - I think dont have barrhs . (:

36. Is no.7 th sexiest person in the world ? -OMG , a guy can be sex for how long ? He not sex at all . :x

37. What is no.10 doing now ? - Hmmms , i not sure . (:

hoho ! imisshim :(

2008-11-14T23:04:00.002+08:00

hoho ! here am i to post somethinq barrhs . (: hahas !! thinq about everythinq happeninq currently . hahas !! i'll be qet over it soon . now qot mini project , after mini project and im free . (:
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about my taqboard & bloqskin . (:
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i find tht my taqboard like dyinq worhs , should i remove my taqboard for sometime ?? hahas !! cause i find tht nobody come and taq me or what lorhs . so bored to see my taqboard so empty . x.x lalalas !! let update about my study life barrhs . hahas !! i just chanqe my bloqskin . (: i like this bloqskin too but then i still lookinq for other . i wish i can do my bloqskin for myself . just my name and my pix only . but then i dontknow how to do it larhs . RAWRS !!! i really very noob doinq it lorhs . who can teach me ? who willinq to teach me how to do bloqskin for free ?? whoooooo ?? who qood at doinq bloqskin ?? haiis !!! **HELPPPPPP LARHSSSSSS**
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ahhhhhh , im so stress !! i leave few more day for my 2D/3D mini project worhs , can i tell you somethinq is tht i haven do anythinq about my mini project . everythinq i had crush with it now . awww , i dontknow where should i start it first . on 17 Nov , is th date for my presentation and yet i didnt done anythinq for it . haiis !! you know why ?? cause idontknow how to do it at all . x.x haiis !! and i qot two more mini project which is packaqinq mini project && print and web desiqn mini project . see one short , i qot three . how am i qoinq to complete on time ?? AHHHHHHHHH , i still cant do my work larhs !! HELP HELP ~ ~ ~ ~ can anyone come to amk ite and help me do my work ?? lols ! idontknow what should i write lorhs . x.x hahas !! this monday is my 2D/3D mini project deadline larhs . i haven even do anythinq . totally crush larhs . **JAMMMMMMMMM** haiis !! mama & papa , help me ~ ~ time passed sooo far and yet i did nothinq just like a shit man . i really want die larhs , hate it lorhs . if i qot choice , i dont want mini project lorhs . when i qrow up , i wanted to be web desiqner dey . but then if i really enter into a job tht is to create website and they will qive me deadline lorhs . i can die on th spot lorhs . AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!! qod , tell me why must i had mini project ?? plus i qot three mini project lorhs . this three mini project , i can die liao lorhs . shit me larhs . x.x in school , i keep slackinq and walkinq out of th class for no reason . **SLACKER** hahas !!
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went out with friend . (:

on th tuesday or when larhs , i forqet th date larhs . i went out with my hpy to buqis . my hpy prepare very loooooonq lorhs . she took 1-2hrs to prepare , by th time she prepare hao is already 7pm liao . RAWRS !! soooo slow lorhs . next time want meet her must ask qo prepare first if not , i qot to wait for her very looooonq liao . she prepare like a princess lorhs , must took up alot of th time durinq her preparinq lorhs . she want qo there and see one bitch lorhs . RAWRS !! see tht bitch's face , i can vomit lorhs . *DUA CHIOBU* puiis larhs , i want puke liao larhs . x.x eeeeeeeeees , i cant take it when i saw her look . imaqine*dontknow how to spell* her look and you will vomit larhs . x.x after saw tht bitch's face , we went to shoppinq awhile . i wanted to qo print my work but in th end i didnt . she bouqht one dress for her and i bouqht one tee shirt for myself too . (: i spent 1o buck . x.x i wanted to buy one more shirt but then bo lui liao . i must save money sooo cannot spent much lorhs . haiis !! bobiians , now i dont have workinq and i must save money for laptop & other stuff lorhs . everyday must save save save save save save lorhs . x.x after buyinq thinq , we went to food court to eat cause im hunqry . hahas !! i forqet what i ate liao . x.x lalalas !! after eatinq , we train back to houqanq liao . on th train qoinq back to houqanq tht time , i veryyyyyy dulan siial . qot one banqala keep stare at hpy & me larhs cause my hpy play sonq in th train marhs and tht quy is readinq a novel . fcuk him larhs , keep stare stare ! O_O then i told her , tht quy is starinq at you . so she off her sonqs and yet th train soo many ppl larhs , why cant he stare other ppl and why must stare us ?? RAWRS ! i qo video on him but then he dont dare to stare lerhhs . i find it bored larhs then i stop it and delete aways . *is childish* i know . after tht i qo blust my sonqs and he jitao stare at him soo i stare back . (: hahas !! when we reach houqanq liao , he still stare . -'- *anqry larhs .*** qet th train liao , hpy meet her boyf . so i went home and she went to eat at plaza there with her boyf . i dont want be liqht bulb , you know ? :x hahas !!
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hahas !! idontknow what should i write lorhs . x.x i really miss him . idontknow why larhs . my life is qettinq borinq && stress larhs . RAWRS !!! qod , can you tell me what should i do next ?? haiis !! imissyou & iloveyou . so messy larhs . dontknow what to do larhs . sooooo confuse larhs . tht time i forward a msq to some of my friend and i also forward to him but he didnt reply me or what lorhs . AHHHHHHH , i feel like dyinq larhs . haiis !! on th monday , i went to appointment check-up for my skin problem . th doctor advice me to qive up on somethinq like surf internet or chattinq with friends or qive up on my audition ?? but then i rather qive up on surfinq internet barrhs , cause i surf net also do nothinq lorhs . x.x hahas !! i must improve my skin problem barrhs . i hate it lorhs . haiis !! i just wonderinq why i will qet it lorhs . my brother's skin sooooo qood lorhs and yet i very envy about my brother's skin lorhs . my brother sooo white and th skin sooo qood . his skin machim like qirl lorhs . x.x *JEALOUS* humphs !! not fair lorhs . i want be my brother like this !!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !! ok larhs , my skin suck like hell as what i know . :x hahas !! i miss him like fcuk lorhs . i quess he dont miss him at all . ok larhs , i think horhs . i miss my bendan better than him lorhs . bendan , i miss you . *puiis* hahas !! jk . :x lalalalas !! everyday conference with joanne they all till very late lorhs . like this conference horhs , i wont have enouqh of sleep lorhs . i need 8 - 12 hrs sleep lorhs , like piq horhs ? need to sleep soo lonq . hahas !! even thouqht i had 8 - 12 hrs but then i still feel sleepy , why arrhs ?? i dontknow th reason lerhhs . keep feel sleepy soo easier . x.x i think horhs , i must everyday sleep then enouqh of my sleepinq time lorhs . i think i can sleep one whole days without wake up and had my breakfast , lunch , dinner & supper barrhs . like this i can be piq larhs . someone always like to call me piq lorhs . everyone always call me piq . *DO I LOOK LIKE A PIG ?* or *DOES MY FACE HAD A PIG LOOK ?* humphs !! like this i'll be piq better than human beinq lorhs . human beinq soo stress and piq soo qood . piq always eat & sleep but piq always qet killed cause human beinq love to eat pork . RAWRS !! dont eat me up can liao (: im a piq tht can walk , run , eat , sleep , play audi , chat on phone , chat on msn , use com & study worhs . see , this piq sooo pro arrhs . :x hahas !! ok larhs , i just really very bored and some how very random lorhs . say sooo many shit on my bloq , i quess you quy see liao want sleep horhs ?? :x hahas !!

next time then i post aqain . (: i wont be keep postinq everyday larhs . sometime , i free then i post it barrhs . (: imisshim & i want meet him aqain , can ?? :x hahas !! and i waitinq for my bendan to ask me out . he keep complain tht he want meet me but then i dont have time to meet and now i had time to meet up with my qans family lorhs . but then everyone seems like very busy arrhs . hahas !! (: must find one day and meet up with everyone lorhs . HAHAS !! i miss them . x.x

Get to know myself better (:

2008-11-06T21:14:00.001+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
;; is to find out more about yourself . (: hahas !!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

a guy live without limbs

2008-11-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

www.lifewithoutlimbs.com . qo see it . (: when i saw this website from my friend's com , i was totally very sad for him . he survive in this world for 25 yrs without his both hands and leqs , he was born with it . and one more is tht this sun he had a talks at expo there . free administration (: hahas ! His Life (: found from his website . :x hahas !!

His Official Website .

It is a great privilege to welcome you to the Life Without Limbs.org website. My name is Nick Vujicic and I'm 25 years old. I was born without arms or legs and given no medical reason for this condition. Faced with countless challenges and obstacles, God has given me the strength to surmount what others might call impossible. Along with that, the Lord has placed within me an unquenchable passion to share this same hope and genuine love that I’ve personally experienced with more than two million people all over the globe.

Traveling extensively to over 19 nations, I've been extremely humbled by the continuous opportunities that the Lord has given me to share my testimony along with the hope that I have in Jesus with people in so many nations and situations. My greatest joy in this life is to introduce Jesus to those I meet and tell them of His great desire to get to know them personally by allowing Him to become their Lord and Savior.

One of my favorite scriptures from the Bible is Psalm 139:17-18 that says, "How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.”

God has used me to let people know in countless schools, churches, prisons, orphanages, hospitals, stadiums and in face-to-face encounters with individuals how very precious they are to God. Secondly, it’s my pleasure to assure them that God does have a plan for their lives that is purposeful. For God took my life, one that others might disregard as having any significance and filled me with His purpose and showed me His plans to move hearts and lives toward Him. Understanding this, though faced with struggles, you can overcome too.

Be encouraged today as you read this promise from the Lord found in Jeremiah 29:11 of the Bible, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

:( do you love me ?!

2008-11-01T15:54:00.007+08:00

hehees !! im back to post aqain . i think is should post more and everyday must bloq riqht ?? but i dont have time larhs . x.x RAWRS !! but i will try to do so , ok ? (: hahas !! hmms , maybe my post very lonq barrhs . i wish i can make it shorter larhs . so lonq , ppl read liao sure will sleep lorhs . want know why ? cause horhs , too lonq larhs then lazy to read liao see throuqht also want sleep lorhs . how how ??!! haiis !! imisshim . (:

about audition (:

wow !! audition now is season 2 & old audition sonq are back too . hahas !! qot new mode siial , beat rush . tht mode is fun lorhs . but alot of ppl dont like , i dontknow why ?? x.x hahas !! i think i create tht room also nobody want come lorhs . :x hahas ! i just like season 2 more than last time audi lorhs . last time audi totally suck lorhs . soo borinq lorhs . :x hahas !! now th key soooo small , see what ??!! i cant even see anythinq lorhs . sooo small !! RAWRS !!! hahas !! (: i qo audi is so laq lorhs . haiis !! laq like hell , how am i qoinq to play my bu when it laq ? who can teach me play well while is laq at th same ??!! if tht person can do tht , is pro lorhs . when laq , totally very hard to play well lorhs . haiis !! ok ok , i dont want say about audi larhs . later you read about audi , can sleep larhs . sorry larhs , im audi freak marhs . nothinq to do so just play my audi lorhs . so better ask me and shoppinq then i wont stay at home and audi all th way larhs . :x lalalas !! (: my brain cant work now . x.x hahas !! (: im come and edit somethinq barrhs .

about school . :( aww , stress !!

*should edit about my school life . (: some other day .*
my mini project for 2D & 3D th deadline is qet near to th corner lorhs . aww , so stress of it . i haven even start anythinq lorhs . i still stoninq durinq lesson larhs . why ??!! haiis !! mini project is part of my exams lorhs and yet i dontknow bother about it larhs . fahaiis larhs , me . *bish myself* i also have one more mini project about packaqinq lorhs . die larhs die larhs !!! all th works come in one short , everythinq tio crush larhs . x.x i still in holiday mood siial , how ???!!! is already pass so lonq liao and yet i still in th hoilday mood lorhs . everyday qo school and slack niiahs !! wtf !! ppl do works and i slack ?! "oii , sheena . what you doinq siial ??!! wake up larhs . stop dreaminq larhs . wake up and do your works larhs . " x.x haiis !! teacher , i want complain !! :x can i complain ? or is my fault to slack ? x.x haiis !! i complain too much also no use , cause my teacher they will qive me th answer is tht "i didnt qive you all alot of homeworks arrhs , all th works is do in school not at home * blabla ." RAWRS !! i should chiionq my works liao larhs . i think i try not to slack or stay in my holiday mood larhs . :x wake sheena !! time to wake up !! hahas !! (:

*edit about my life . :(
im in love with you , boy . i want you to be mine . i love you deeply as time passed , my love for you become stronqer but then i know we wont be toqether as one . so is i willinq to love you . even thouqht , i do miss you but i didnt say it out cause no point to say it when you're not mine . (: hope you can be my audition cpl barrhs . but i cant promise tht i wont break cpl . if one day you found tht i had break th cpl with you or what , dont ask me why or qet anqry/emo . cause i start to learninq how to let of you . is not easy to let qo someone . love is like war ; easy to start ; hard to end & impossible to forqet . x.x i can in love with you but i cant swear tht my feelinq for you one day will fade aways . time passed very fast but all th memories we had will just kept in my heart barrhs . my heart melt when i was with you . (: maybe you're just th quy tht i wanted barrhs . impossible tht we will be an item or what , all we can is be friend tht all ? haiis !! last time we can everday sms non stop but now we are not like last time liao . x.x all th msq you reply me , i didnt take it . i dont want keep it cause i dont want repeat readinq all your msq aqain and aqain . :( i always told myself tht i had to forqet you and stop lovinq you but i cant . why ? haiis !! i wanted you to hold me sleep at niqht . i wanted you to huq me one last time . just one last time only . i misses your huq , i miss it man . haiis !! in th past few months , maybe i will qet emo and sad over those words you had say but now i dont qet emo and sad over it and yet i qet happy cause iloveyou . (: boy , i love you so . haiis !!! :( sometime i wonderinq larhs , should i treat you qood or treat you bad ? idontknow . my friend they all told me let qo of it , how am i qoinq to let qo of it ??!! my heart had been broken in th past and now is broken by you . time can heal my wound in my heart , but it take how lonq to do so ?! i always try not to think about you or what , but cant . i will miss you and think of you . lovinq someone is hard but lettinq him qo is th most hard then lovinq someone . be loved by someone is so happy but who will love me ? will i be loved by someone or i must love someone ? i thinkinq and thinkinq everyday and niqht . just think & think . awwwww ! i think of you , martin ! haiis !! imissyou larhs . can we meet up aqain ?! can we be like last time ?! can ?? i quess it wont . forqet it . but at least , sometime i still can sms you awhile also not bad barrhs . (:

:( awww !!

2008-10-08T15:33:00.010+08:00

im back to post aqain . (: hmms , what should i post first . let me think . (:

lalalas ! i know should i post about it liao . (: on 5 oct is my li'l princess birthday but sad to say tht she fall sick on her birthday . my sister brinq her to hospital nearby , you know what ? they dont have children medicine , wtf larhs . so hiqh class hospital dont have those children medicine lorhs then nevermind , we wanted to brinq her to clinic but dont have clinic nearby , so we bouqht some medicine for her . when she eaten th medicine but is better . so we all had cut her birthday cake and yet she fall asleep . very hard to wake her up so we just let her sleep lorhs . (: i should put pix barrhs , dontknow should i put or not lerhhs . lazy to post those pix larhs . x.x on th 6 oct , she was sent to kkh hospital , idontknow how to say it . but all i know is tht she in icu because of her breathinq and blah blah larhs . on th 7 and 8 oct , she still in icu . when are she qoinq to move to normal wards ? haiis ! nevermind , ahyi is here to pray hard for you . you qot to be stronq . you're forever my li'l precious tht i loved . (: xinhui , we all are prayinq hard for you . you're our precious . after th few days in icu , she is fine liao . now in normal wards , she can smile and play with us liao . so happy to see tht she is fine . soon she will be ok and discharqe liao . (: hahas !! hmms , this one week i keep qo to kkh to peii her . she have discharqe liao , now at home . (: see her smile , play with us and im so happy .

school qoinq to reopen liao , is th most sians larhs ! on th 13oct which is th date for school reopen , i was late for first day siial . siians !! i keep late for lesson , want know why ?? cause i dont want qo school so early lorhs . qo early do nothinq is it ?? face th com and sit there stare tht com for nothinq is it ?? lolls !! first day of school , and yet i was havinq a monday blues larhs and i still in my holiday mood lorhs . no mood for school lorhs . x.x first day of school jiu qot mini works liao , what th fcuk larhs . so fast jiu mini project liao . ihateit . i had forqet some of th works all this liao . x.x haiis !! i qoinq to fail liao larhs , no hope liao larhs . how i pray also no use larhs . all th mini project , still need to presentation lorhs . die die larhs . i hate to presentation infront of ppl dehrs . x.x tht is my weak point bodoh . never study derhs me , RAWRS !! i qot to do my 2D/3D sketch for my mini project larhs . sooo anqry lorhs . haiis !!! i keep busy with my project and mini project , do you know is stress for me ?? i had fall sick liao . haiis !! i now havinq fever , flu , sore throat && headache . x.x my head soo painful sial . everyday at home , also nothinq to do . x.x cant qo out or what , i was like locked at home lorhs . never qo school for 2 days . x.x i qot 2 days mc but i not sure whether i will recover or not lorhs . =.= why i will fall sick larhs ?? i hate it lorhs . haiis !! i want fast finish my mini project lorhs . haiis !! and i want fast recover larhs . omq omq . my head so painful larhs . x.x cant take it liao . eat medicine also like no help larhs .

edited :

one last thinq , i want to say ; i still couldn't forqet about him . why ? i keep miss him . am i still lovinq him ? my heart is so confuse . anyone can tell me ? time can heal everythinq , i just lettinq time to heal my heart && forqet about him soon . hais !! boy , you say tht you love me but i dont believe it . i keep askinq myself whether iloveyou or not but i couldn't find any answer . i want know th answer only . pls !! qod , can you be kind and tell me what to do next ?? could you qrant somethinq ?? haiis !! you say those words , i dontknow should i or not ? iloveyou . yes , i love you but i dontknow is it true tht iloveyou or not . i want had a look on you one last time so i'll remember your look and your smile . (: maybe i will forqet everythinq sinqle thinq happen in my life but i hope i can remember your look and your smile . (: boy , you're just my audi cpl only . a sonq tht i want you to qo listen is tht "i wanted you -ina" , tht lyrics is what i really hope . i wanted you but i cant . x.x as lonq as we're friend , this what you told me . "I wanted you to be there when I fall , I wanted you to see me through it all , I wanted you to be the one I love , I wanted you , I wanted you , I wanted you to hold me in my sleep , I wanted you to show me what I need , I wanted you to know just how down deep ." i dont care whether you qot read my bloq or pass by my bloq or not . (: i just write out what i want only . i want type a sonq out here , dontknow why . (: let me type out barrhs . dont stop me doinq it . (: hahas !!

*sonq lyrics*

Say It Aqain - Marie Diqby

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming

You kinda crept up into me by surprise

And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering

Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer

Take it to a whisper

Get just a litter louder

Say it again for me

Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind

Say it again for me

It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me

You talk about us like there's no end in sight

The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer

Take it to a whisper

Get just a litter louder

Say it again for me

Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind

Say it again for me

It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time

That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain

And never in my whole life

Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me

Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind

Say it again for me

It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again

When you tell me you're in love

Say it again

hmms , MIA in process !

2008-09-23T21:14:00.005+08:00

hmms , i wont be bloqqinq for sometime barhs . i know i didnt posted anythinq since 14 sept . but then i will post somethinq soon barrhs . hmms , i dontknow what to post for this few days at all . lastly , i will be mia from postinq but then i will reply taq all this larhs . lolls !! nothinq different from MIA riqht ? haiis , i qoinq to crazy soon larhs . RAWRS !! cant audi riqht now , still havinq th patch lorhs . i went to audi website and check , by 7 we could play liao but now still cant . WTF larhs . fine , i think today i wont audi lorhs . haiis !! cant audi then i qo sleep early lorhs . th weather so hot sial . hope tht it will raininq this few days barrhs . never rain , i cant take it th weather lorhs . sunny and hot man . X_X hmms , after few days or week i will be back and post everythinq , ok ? hahas !! =D just wait for me . i will be back soon larhs .

-edited one more thinq ;

i just wake up from a dream only . but then now back to friend aqain . haiis ! forqet it larhs . this relationship is just like a dream niiahs , when time to wake up and everythinq qone back to th same aqain . haiis !! i hope i wont think of it aqain liao . i should i forqet about him barrhs . i admit i love him more than everyone do , can ? i cant bear to lost him at all . i should respect his decision , so i accept his decision lorhs . what else i can do ? hold him back ? will he come back if i hold on ? haiis !! but i really cant see him qo at all . i miss his huq can ? i wont forqet th time when we spent toqether . when i huqqed him tht time , i hope tht i can huq him forever and never let qo but now i must learn how to let qo liao . haiis !! forqet it barrhs . let me dream barrhs . from th start till now , all is a dream of it niiahs . now what i thouqht at all . sua larhs , i dont have th fate in another relationship liao larhs . i should be sinqle for th rest of my life is it ?! when will i found my happiness ?? could anyone tell me ? let me know what is love ? what is th feelinq of love ? haiis !! i dont qet what love is ? i think i havinq a love sick barhs . since th date i know him till now , i keep fallinq sick and didnt recover at all . who can cure me ?! can he come and cure me ? jsut one huq , i think my sick will be qone . im daydream , ok ? just iqnore what im sayinq , can ? hahas !! lalalas !! but i think this time i really crazy liao . anyone could sent me qo IMH marhs ?? i rather qo there and stay then stay at home worhs . haiis !! nana miss him more then miss chulonq larhs . chulonq is my past tense , martin is present tense ? lolls !! i treat them as what ? toy arrhs ?? past tense and present tense somemore sial . ok ok , im crazy . soo i should stop typinq . =D qoinq to my lalalas land . hahas !!

tired ! x.x

2008-09-14T18:52:00.004+08:00

hmms , i had back to post aqain .

should post about 11.o9.o8 - 14.o9.o8 ; this 4 days barhs .

hahas !! i really dontknow whatot post lorhs . x.x

11.o9.o8 ; thursday .

went to school lorhs . nothinq much happen lorhs .

my lesson start at 2pm because this few days , thursday no lifeskill . i wonderinq why thursday dont have lifeskill siials . hahas !! so i woke up around 10 plus or 11 , i qo wash up and prepare lorhs . prepare hao liao , waitinq for time to pass faster lorhs . keep waitinq & waitinq at home . i qet bored at home so i went down and i thouqht of havinq breakfast but i didnt want to eat lorhs . hahas !! i didnt eat at all , so i went to bus stop and wait for bus lorhs . when bus came , i took bus qo school lorhs . henq , i thouqht i qoinq to late but i didnt . =D see , i so henq lorhs . hahas !! *bish myself .* lolls . durinq lesson time , we keep takinq pix lorhs . hahas ! after lesson , jul , denise , aileen and me went to amk hub th foodcourt to eat . i was so hunqry lorhs . after eatinq , we all went home liao .

12.o9.o8 ; friday .

didnt went to school . sleepinq at home .

friday i didnt qo school because i was too tired liao . so sleep until very shiiok at home but my mother keep callinq me to wake up . i was so anqry liao , i hack care i continue with my sleep but she keep callinq me to wake up . WTF larhs . i didnt want qo school because i soo tired liao . still want me qo school mehs ?? i qo school to sleep is it ? i rather stay at home and sleep lorhs . hahas !! around 11plus , i woke up and saw his msq so i reply him lorhs . hahas !! he promise his friends tht amk there th lan can wear uniform but i dont think tht they can wear uniform lorhs . lolls !! so i told him tht brinq his friend to venus there to play lan lorhs . =) so i went down to venus to find them . so i play one hrs of audi . when my time is up , i was waitinq for him lorhs . RAWRS !! so i sit in th lan and see JOY-DEVIL play and disiao him awhile lorhs . hahas !! after tht i went to buy drink and sit outside th bus stop to wait for him lorhs . waitinq & waitinq ! so lonq . when he finish liao , he came out liao lorhs . we waited for bus to qo amk hub to watch wall.e aqain . =D i watch it twice liao . hahas !! wall.e ~ =XX finish watch it liao , we dontknow what to do so we all qo back to venus and play audi . =D ahahas !! we play 2 hrs niiahs , after 2 hrs liao we all went home liao . hahas !! nothinq happen after tht lorhs . =D

13.o9.o8 ; saturday .

went out & play candles .

woke up and wash up , waitinq for jul to msq me . so i texted her and ask her where is she . i was still at home and haven prepare yet lorhs . when she reach liao , i still at home . =X but i was rushinq down to houqanq mall to meet them larhs . after meet them then we take bus to ahbear's hse there to put tattoo . not i put larhs , is jul's friend want put larhs . hahas !! i was bored lorhs . hahas !! nothinq to do marhs . so siians siials . when jul they all had done liao , they went off so i still at there . i didnt want qo home lorhs . stay there all th way lorhs . i slackinq there only . ahbear say want play candles so we went to buy candles lorhs . i texted him and he also play candles lorhs . but i ask him come down and play toqether larhs . lolls !! so he and jj take cab come down . they waited for me very lonq . i was at home , dl-inq sonq lorhs . after dl finish liao then we all qo down to mac there to find them . let them wait so lonq lorhs . hahas !!! we went to ahbear's hse aqain to wait for ahxianq they all lorhs . so wait awhile liao , all come back then we qo down to playqroud there to play candles lorhs . after tht martin & jj they all qo home first . after tht i also went up to ahbear's hse to qet my wallet and key so i walk home liao . when i reach home , martin called me ask me qo down and ton with them but i was so tired lorhs . so in th end , i qo down larhs . ton with them until 6am lorhs . i entertain them until i want sleep liao lorhs . lolls !!

14.o9.o8 ; sunday .

mooncake festive . =D

today is mooncake festive . =D hahas !! nothinq to post about today . hahas !! should be fun today derhs but i stayinq at home . haiis . i so tired liao . just want sleep all th way and dont wake lorhs . i wish i could tht lorhs . haiis !!!

tired liao . i feel like sleepinq lorhs . so tired lorhs . hahas !! is time to sleep liao . tatas .

im back aqain . hahas !

2008-09-07T20:11:00.013+08:00

yo yo , im back to post aqain . welcome me for back to post aqain . *clapclap*
*bish myself . hahas !!
hmms , what should i post now ?? let me thinks about this few days arrhs .
im here to post aqain . =D

o1.o9.o8 ; monday ,
no school on o1.o9 because teachers' day .

hmms , no school because of teachers' day so must thanks to teachers lorhs . so i stay at home larhs . whole day playinq audi ! play until my eyes qoinq to pop out lorhs . @@ haahs !! really nothinq much to say lorhs . hahas !! teachers' day is a borinq day for me lorhs . no school then cannot do my works . i still haven do my loqo project because i dont have illustrator at home so i cant do my works lorhs . siians diiao lorhs . i still owe one more works lorhs . haiis !! cant blame me larhs . is because i dont like do those borinq works lorhs . too borinq , i can sleep . seriously larhs , i can sleep when ms jean qive me those works tht is borinq lorhs . i didnt even want touch th works at all . keep playinq my psp or listen to sonq . see what i do when th works are not for me to do derhs . open th com for fun niiahs . just let my teacher thouqht tht i qot do my works lorhs . =D hahas !!

o2.o9.o8 - o4.o9.o8 ; tuesday to thursday ,
this two days i went to school as usual . i so quaii liao lorhs . qot qo school liao . =D

i went school as normal lorhs . =X but when reach school i feel sleepy and borinq liao . dontknow why lerhhs . maybe i find school too borinq liao . but yet i still want qo school no matter what . hahas !! i qo school is because of GPA lorhs . hahas !! everyone of my classmate want qo poly but i still dontknow should i qo poly or not . after ite , i want qo works first then qo poly but is it too late ?! hack care this problem first , i force in my study first . hahas !! on o4.o9.o8 , my lesson at 1.3o because no lifeskill lesson . so i wake up around 11plus am lorhs , i wake up very early lorhs . RAWRS !! i should wake up at 12pm but in th end , i wake up so early lorhs . then i qo prepare lorhs . prehao hao liao , still early siials !! RAWRS ! dontknow what to do lorhs . waitinq for th time pass faster lorhs . so i texted a msq to MARTIN lorhs . everyday msq him in th morninq , he still sleepinq lorhs . everyday late for lesson derhs , him . haha !! msq him in th morninq then must wait dontknow until what time for his reply lorhs . can wait until sleep larhs . he piq larhs . !! oiink oiink !! piq only know how to eat & sleep niiahs ! =X but now i just want force on my stoopiid study lorhs . RAWRS !! i must study hard this time to qet my GPA point lorhs . if not , i cant qet into poly lorhs . RAWRS !! i want qo poly but still planninq whether should i qo work first or qo poly after ITE ??!! idontknow larhs . still thinkinq larhs . qot one more year for me to think larhs . slowly think first lorhs . still qot time to think larhs . =D hahas !!

o5.o9.o8 ; friday ,
went school and watch "wall.e" tht show .

morninq wake up qo school . =D you all know what ?? i didnt wear uniform qo school and yet i wear my home polo qo . nobody cares . =D hahas !! so waited for mummy come my school wait for me lorhs . lesson end then qo school amk hub to watch wall.e lorhs . hahas !! but i also texted a msq to him too and i told him tht i qoinq to watch wall.e but he never say anythinq . i thouqht he will reply me walao all this but he didnt . then i siians lorhs . also dont care about his msq larhs . i watch wall.e until i lauqh until my ass can off th sit liao lorhs . so funny lorhs . hahas !! wall.e and eve omqomq . when you all wathc it , you all will know derhs . =D hahas !! but wall.e is more cute then everyone in tht show lorhs . i love wall.e . =DD hahas !! tht show really very nice lorhs . must qo and watch lorhs . die die also must watch it lorhs . sibei funny and nice lorhs . can lauqh until your ass off th sit lorhs . =X really very nice lorhs . i want watch aqain . but someone haven watch it because nobody peii him qo watch lorhs . so sad for him . =X nothinq happen on friday lorhs . hahas !! after movie then qo home lorhs . nothinq for me to do at outside because friday i was not in qood mood too . so after watch then qo home larhs . dont want stay at outside too lonq lorhs . RAWRS !!

o6.o9.o8 ; saturday ,
went to lan shop and play audi .

hahas !! tianxin & her brother was at lan liao , so i qo down to lan and find them to play audi toqether lorhs . hahas ! went to lan shop and play audi . i play 4 hrs 3o mins . hahas !! play until almost 9 pm lorhs . when i finish playinq lan and i qet out of th lan shop . you know what ?! is raininq man . shyt larhs . i didnt brinq unbrella lorhs . so bobiians lorhs , i walk under th rain and i qot sick . haiis !! seriously larhs , i lazy to qet an umbrella to qo out lorhs . tht why i qo out , didnt brinq umbrella derhs . ppl will brinq umbrella qo out but i wont . this few days , th weather very weird lorhs . sometime sunny & sometime raininq . RAWRS !! hahas !! ppl play audi then cannot sms at th same but i can . lolls !! i cant sms while i playinq BU . BU is my favourite mode tht i like lorhs .

o7.o9.o8 ; sunday ,
never qo out & stay at home whole day aqain .

i didnt qo out lorhs . see , i so quaii worhs . =D stay at home whole day lorhs . didnt even step out of th hse lorhs . =X hahas !! whole day playinq audi lorhs . qo msn awhile jiu qo back to audi aqain . but audi too much , will siians derhs . nobody online and peii me audi lorhs . RAWRS !!! hahas !! wanted qo out but nobody want peii me then i stay at home lorhs . playinq audi and sms with ppl at th same time lorhs . hahas ! sms sms sms sms sms all th way never stop at all . i cant use my line number to sms with ppl lorhs , because my line bill have blast liao . RAWRS !! use too much then kena scolded lorhs . my daddy say want cut away my line but i die die also dont want cut away th line derhs . if cut away then must use back prepaid aqain . x.x i use prepaid card also must always top up derhs . so better qive me use line then prepaid card lorhs . arqhs !! RAWRS !!

o8.o9.o8 - 1o.o9.o8 ; monday to wednesday ,
as normal , qo school .

as usual . wake up , wash & prepare lorhs . prepare hao liao , qo school liao . now my lesson very fun lorhs . keep take pix around th school lorhs . =D when i qot time in school , i will qo upload all th pix in my another bloq . =D morninq wake up jiu text msq to MARTIN & ahXIANG . hahas !! nothinq happen lorhs . haiis , i still haven recover yet . you all know why ? because i keep buyinq chocolate , sweet and snack to eat in school durinq lesson lorhs . haiis !! i just love buyinq snacks and eat until my sick still haven recover . should be scolded lorhs . =X i hate fall sick but i cant stop my mouth from eatinq snack all this larhs . my ice cream still haven eat finish yet . see , my hse also qot snack for me derhs . =D hahas !! i have qrow fat liao . im happy tht i had qrow fats abit liao . now my weiqht is 51 kq . but my heiqht still haven qrow taller . RAWRS ! i want qrow taller larhs . hais !!! dont want post liao larhs .

byes everyone . i not qoinq to post liao . my brain not workinq at this time . maybe when i in school then continue editinq larhs . * tired . *

*edited ;
this weekday i slept very late liao . i sms until very late then cant wake up in th morninq lorhs . haiis !! but nevermind larhs . haiis !! sick and tired liao .

hahahas !

2008-08-28T20:29:00.005+08:00

hmms , what should i post lerhhs ?? let me think about it . hahahas !!
im back aqain , miss me ? =X *bish myself .*
here im back aqain , ok ?! lols !!

28.o8.o8 ; thursday .

went out & view my brother . =D

i went to watch "meet dave" tht movie liao . now i qoinq to watch wall.e tht show . i quess alot of ppl is cominq alonq with me & mummy . one biq qroup qo watch movie toqether is so weird to me or happy ? i dont really like to qo in qroup liao . lols . ._. but i qot no choice larhs , all my friend but i dont really soo close to them and out of sudden all qo watch movie toqether . i was just feel soooo weird larhs . hahas ! i really qot nothinq to post larhs . my mind is blank at this time lorhs . meet dave tht show very funny and nice barhs . i enjoy it sial . wall.e , i know you waitinq for me come and watch your show riqht ? i qoinq to watch it , ok ? hahas ! i went to visit my brother wit my qan mummy and my real mummy larhs , i happy to see my brother lorhs . he become more fit then before . hahas ! hope tht everythinq fast finish then i really want see my brother everyday at home and peii me chat or qo out lorhs . i missed th days we used to qo out derhs . hahas !! =X i know tht my brother really dote me lot , he buy thinq for me when i want . see i qot a qood brother and i didnt cherish it at all . i miss my brother ! =D nothinq to post liao barhs . =)

29.o8.o8 ; friday .

went school & qo out aqain .

wake up in th morninq then qo school for lifeskill lesson . see i so quaii qo school . =X because thursday never qo school marhs , went to visit my brother marhs . i qot reason for never qo school lorhs . hahas ! should be qo back to school aqain for th school event , i dontknow what event lorhs . i didnt turn up because i find it no point larhs . behalf of my parent to qo back to school until 8pm ?? wtf lorhs . in th end , i went to play lan with my qan mummy until 6plus lorhs . henq tht my teacher never call my parent barhs . hahas !! seriously larhs , who want qo ?? until so late lorhs , i rather qo out until 8 plus then qo home lorhs . say th true larhs , i hate school event lot derhs , from secondary school till now , i dont like school events or parent meetinq lorhs . parent meetinq is somethinq tht i hate it larhs . teacher will say everythinq happen in school about me lorhs and what i had done in school lorhs . teacher always sabo me to my dead life lorhs . lolls !! hope tht tuesday i qo back school and my teacher never scold me barhs . =X hahas !! tuesday i need to take leave form from my teacher because thursday i didnt qo school marhs , went to visit my brother marhs . see , i qo reason lorhs . my attend will have derhs . hahas ! monday no school , weee . soo qood , monday no school . hahas !! =DD i can sleep lonqer abit liao . hahas ! really nothinq happen lorhs . =) i should study hard this time larhs . i cannot slack liao , slack in th last term liao . now must do my best in everythinq lorhs and i must jiayous liao . hahas !! if i can qo poly , i wish my parent will let me qo lorhs . qo poly then i can learn more about my course marhs . =X hahas !! must qet qpa 3.5 and above lorhs . hahahas !!

i qot somethinq to say about someone lorhs . =X
is about -CLIQUE-ACE ! he is bad quy . =X

there is one person horhs , come my bloq and read then dont dare to taq me lorhs . i dontknow who tht person lorhs . lols ! =X hahas ! -CLIQUE-ACE ; dont be shy larhs . come and taq me larhs . keep view my bloq and never taq , you dont feel ps marhs ?! lols ! dont be shy larhs . taq me , you wont die riqht ?? lolls !! -CLIQUE-ACE , you dare to view my bloq then must dare to taq me marhs . lolls !! hahas ! =) makinq you become popular worhs . must be proud lorhs . =X ytd you complain tht i didnt sent you a morninq msq & qoodniqht msq lorhs , then in th end i qot sent you a qood niqht msq and qood morninq msq liao lorhs . dont say i bo xim larhs . only tht day didnt sent only marhs . ppl rushinq to qo other place in th morninq then forqet to sent you only marhs . lolls !! oh ya , still qot one more thinqs tht i want say also , you say i never entertain you ? and last time i will say "jys , dar" and now never say ?? see , you complain so much about me . why not you qo complain to my qan mummy about it ?? you complain to her tht i not qood all this larhs . you love to complain so much then let you complain in my taqborad lorhs . now is my turn to complain lorhs . lolls !! fair marhs . you complain then i also must complain back derhs . i want complain is tht you view ppl's bloq and never taq tht is not a qood thinq lorhs . if ppl view your bloq and never taq you like it or not larhs ?? you think my bloq is free viewinq arrhs ?? lolls !! view liao also must taq marhs . you dont have manner marhs ? you dontknow th rules mehs ?? view ppl bloq need to taq derhs larhs , if not ppl dont let you view their bloq lorhs . =.= hahas !! and one more thinq is tht why is i msq you everytime not you msq me arrhs ?? why arrhs ?? is not fair lorhs . everytime i msq you first then you never msq me derhs . i want complain !!! lalalas !! =XX i had complain finish liao . let me think still qot anythinq to complain about you or not lorhs . hahas !! oh ya , you always bully me in 8k lorhs . you wait i find pro and come thrash you lorhs . wakakakas !! i will complain to my mummy too . i want complain too . see whether qot ppl is a kind soul come and taq me , say tht you are baq quy lorhs . =XX hahas !! you are bad quy sial . see , i complain in my bloq lerhhs . i know you will come and view my bloq derhs . so i complain here is a correct place for me . =D hahas !! when you see liao horhs , dont complain about it lorhs . lalalas !! come and see arrhs . im waitinq man . come come !! everybody come and see my bloq also . but but you all must taq me larhs , dont be someone horhs come and view my bloq and never taq derhs . maybe tht person hum or shy arrhs , dont dare to taq me lorhs . like scare qot ppl want eat him up lorhs . pls larhs , who want eat him ?? want eat also eat other marhs . =XX lalalas !! come and complain arrhs ?? ooo , there one more thinq tht i almost forqet . is tht what is ily mean arrhs ?? someone dontknow what is mean sial . anyone can explain to him marhs ? i find tht he dont have common sense lorhs . ily is soo simple thinq tht he dontknow lorhs . =XX anyone dont tell him . let him ownself qo think and quess lorhs . he not tht stoopiid until dontknow what is mean lorhs . he tryinq to act blur lorhs . hahas !!

hahas !! i have finish postinq everythinq in my bloq liao . =D hahas !! byes . i will be back to post aqain derhs . cya . wait for me to post new thinq barhs . =) hahas !!

nice song . =D

2008-08-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

I wanted you - Ina

this sonq really very nice . th lyrics is some how very sweet . you all can try and listen it . i can tell you all tht you wont sick of this sonq derhs . =) i can keep listen non stop for a day . is really very sweet . seriously i love this sonq . hahas !

wow !

2008-08-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

hmmms , what should i start with ?! hmmmmms , let me think . =)
i think i should post about this few weeks barrhs . LOLLS !

saturday & sunday & monday

saturday i went out with ahyi to buqis . ahyi was havinq project with her classmate and yet i qo there and stone ! ._. i waited for her sooo lonq and i almost qoinq to fall asleep . =.- i was soo bored until i play my psp but i play until siians . so i stop playinq and keep my psp in my baq . i sit there and see them do th project , i can sleep lorhs . aftertht , we walk to buqis there dontknow what time liao . then we had dinner at food court there . finish our dinner then went to street there and shop awhile jiu off home liao . i was soo borinq .

sunday totally nothinq much larhs . soo borinq at home .

monday i went to school like normal lorhs . qo school soo borinq lorhs . i can sleep durinq my lesson time . hahas !!

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about today ;

today i went to dye my hair with my sister and mother . =) finally dye purple but i didnt want let ppl see my purple so i dye those purple only can see it with liqht . hahahas !! maybe i qoinq to qet a tattoo on my hand and lip piercinq too . is seems like i tryinq to chanqe but alot of ppl dont like it . if i qot a tattoo , what my parent will think or will they naq me ?! hmmmms !! i qot to save money to qet a lip piercinq . seriously larhs , i qot a lip piercinq not because of what larhs . i just find it cool to have lip piercinq niahs . ahqonq dont want me to pierce it and jul also dont want me too . she say look like ahlians . ._. qrrrs ! just want a lip piercinq , also sooo hard and wronq marhs ?! if i qet tattoo , what you all qoinq to say about it ?! ._. hope tht i dye and nobody notice it . =X lalalas !! why i had chanqe so much ? maybe i had been broken into piece now and i not qoinq to fix it but i qoinq to chanqe it . i become sooo quailan and xialan liao . =.= sorry if i talk to you all in a quailan & xialan way . lalalas !! nothinq to post liao barrhs . i qo sleep liao . hahas ! not i dont want post more but i really very tired liao . cant post much . =X next weeks , i will post aqain . hahas ! now i broken and i wont fix it first . i will wait till th riqht time then i will fix it . now let it broken and hanqinq over there . hahas ! =)

th time i will erase it .

2008-08-15T19:21:00.004+08:00

i didnt post my bloq about six days barhs . now im back to post aqain . lolls ! im back to sinqle life aqain . i wont wanna attach aqain until i found someone tht i love and he will love me back derhs . i will erase all th memories tht we will toqether . all are just a liar to me . beinq a liar one time , you will be addicted to be a liar aqain . your whole life is to be liar barhs . i not sayinq anyone or what , i just want say th fact barhs . lolls ! ytd i so suay man , i qo back audi ytd then qot one qirl kp me for no reason men . i was in my friend's room because she brb . so i and spark waitinq for her to come back larhs . then qot one cb qirl come in th room and she rdy for no reason , we told her tht we are waitinq for ppl but she dont want leave th room . then forqet larhs . my hunny is back , tht qirl ask me to faster faster invite ppl . i reply her tht invite shyt you want ? i invite ppl , ppl reject me . invite shyt then you know larhs . ccb . i dont want say liao larhs . i totally pissed off by her men . i didnt play audi for weeks or days only lorhs . then qot ppl kp me for no reason liao . wtf men !!! forqet it !! i dont want say liao . qrrrs !! let talk about today barrhs . hahas !! today should be qo buqis with ahmin and sam sam but i went out of my hse early because i didnt want stay at home too lonq larhs . but i qot somethinq to say is tht i saw my honey at bus stop with his friend at my hse there but i didnt call him larhs . i was shock to see him lorhs . i was waitinq for bus and he also waitinq for bus too . hahas ! i act blur tht i never saw him . =X so bad of me . hehees ! his bus came so he board th bus first , i look up for my bus and he turn over . he saw me and he msq me . i was omqomq !!! =) i trained down to cityhall and meet ahmin . waited for her to finish her project with her friend . soo lonq sial . i almost qoinq to fall asleep lorhs . =.= hahas ! after tht we went to buqis without samsam because we cant qet him . i didnt really shop at all larhs . just look around lorhs . lolls !! i dontknow what to post liao . i so tired now . maybe tml or next weeks then i post more thinq barhs . today is really tired until i cant post anythinq . lolls !

haiis ! idontknow what to do larhs .

2008-08-10T01:59:00.003+08:00

o9o8 is National Day . so i want say Happy 43th Birthday to Singapore . =)

i went to watch firework with my gan ahma . only we two niahs . soo boring lorhs . only we two went . i wanted to ask my dardar out derhs and in the end , he went with his friend . i was sooo !@%^& larhs . fine larhs . not to get angry for it . hahas ! i see sai larhs . th tree block my view and yet i see th tree not th firework lorhs . wtf !! i can said tht th firework is not better but i didnt see it larhs . i only can see abit only . we didnt take any picture of it at all . hahas ! ooo , i should stop saying about it liao .

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haiis , idontknow what to do larhs . sometime i wondering should i treat you good or should i treat you bad ? i really dontknow larhs . dardar , i just know tht i do love you . i do cry because of you . you know why ? i am just afraid tht you will leave me one day . th time you will in operation , i was totally worry about you and i didnt eat for th day . i was waiting for your msg th whole day . you are th one now i love and i seriously dont want lose you . you are th one who make me smile again . i smile is because of you . sometime i was crying for no reason , i cried when i didnt receive your msg or your call . i really missed you badly , do you know ? i guess you wont know it derhs . fine . since you want quit audi and go back to maple then you go barhs . i find no point for me to play any online game liao larhs . i should quit my audi and everything larhs . or should i MIA from audi barhs . MIA from this world is better for me . im sick and tired of everything liao larhs . can you all kindly space me a life marhs ? give me back my own time larhs . i really dont want anything in my life larhs . no point to post here larhs . he wont see it at all . i just throw out all my feeling in here niiahs . i dont suit to be your girlfriend wasn't it ? i thought that only my ex could melt my heart but you are th second one who melted my heart . this time i hope i wont let you go again liao . maybe i cant let you go at all . you are th one i love now and i will love you till my last breath . if i only leave 15 mins to survive , i hope i could tell you tht i love you with my last breath . dying is what i wish now . i hope i can die now . i dont want suffer anymore . im sick of it . every second , every minutes i was thinking of you , dardar . every one second i survive , i counted in my heart . every one minutes i spent with you , is tattoo into my heart . im just counting my time with you . when th time is up , i hope i will still here with you . i dont want leave or what . you give me hope all this , i really want cherish th time we will together . i was wondering why you cant care me more abit ? i just want you to care me more abit . i so transparent to everyone now . i admit that i everyday is crying . out of sudden , i cry . i wish i can stop crying from now on . is there any pill to stop me from crying or any drug can stop me from crying , and me go wild & crazy at th same . dardar , i simply in love with you . i hope tht thing will stop at th moment will do . forget it liao larhs . th time i spent with you , i am glad liao . th time i spent with you , i will remember it when ever i go . iloveyou , dardar . i do mean it . you are th first one tht i cry everyday for no reason . there is no reason why i will cry and yet now my heart is aching so painful . is bleeding in my heart . is really bleed . maybe i will lost of blood one day . i hope i can collect my own blood in a bottle every time , my heart is bleed . collect until i lost of blood . haiis ! to me now nothing is important than you . you are so important to me , do you know ? i guess , you dontknow about it . sometime words are unspoken , you got to find it yourself . you want me to change but i can tell you tht i cant do it . not to scold vulgar infront of you , i guess i cant do it . you want me to change , it take time to do so . i know i may not suit to be your girl now . but there is time , i hope tht i can change because of you . i never change myself because of any guy and now you are th first want me to change but i can try my best to change it . i say so much in my own blog but who will see it ? will you come to my blog and read it ? i guess you wont barhs . forget it larhs . i write here is for myself to see it . haiis !! killing myself in th process of it . you may think i not trying . [tonight will be the night tht i will fall for you over again . dont make me change my mind . i wont live to see another day , i swear it's true . you're impossible to find . i always swore to you that i wound never fall apart , you always thought tht i was stronger . i may have failed but i have loved you from th start . and hold onto your words 'cause talk is cheap and remember me tonight when you're asleep . - is from "fall for you by secondhand serenade .] you can go listen to it . hope you know how much important you are to me liao . make me happy everyday and yet i am crying everyday . there is no point for me to be happy liao barhs . dardar , you are just like th pill to me . th pill that make me happy , sad , crazy , angry over you .

; why is that happen to me ?

2008-08-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

dont i suit to be someone girlfriend marhs ? or what ? i really hate everything that i got now , i feel that i left nothing only leave a empty shell for everyone niahs . am i sooo transparent to you all ? or i too transparent until you all cant notice me ? i dontknow larhs . i just feel that im soo fcuking useless and im just sooo fcuking hopeless . when i sick , nobody cares about it . i sick , nobody know at all . i always trying to be strong that i not sick infront of everyone or i trying to be strong that i not sad at all . why must i do all this ? or i dontknow how to show out my weakness ? there is time , i needed someone to stay by myself and listening to me or lend me a shoulders to cry on but i couldnt find anyone . haiis ! i fcuking hate it lorhs . can i find someone who really can come out and be by my side when i seriously needed someone . why must my family treat me so bad ? sometime i couldnt understand it . they want me study but i promise them i will study . can they promise me anything marhs ? this few days i cried . out of sudden , i cried . i dontknow the reason why i cry ? im soo transparent to everyone liao larhs . i want really cry out loud from my lung and heart , cry until my lungs blast , cry until my eyes is blind , cry until my heart had stop beating . i hope i can cry until idontknow anything at all . i told myself not to cry anymore , why i cry again ? why ? T_T haiis ! i dont want to post liao . i better go and draw circle larhs . draw circle until im crazy larhs . i dont have the mood to play audition liao . just go audition and slack . what else i know ? haiis !!

so boring !

2008-08-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

im back to post again barhs . i sooo boring nowadays lorhs , nothing to do at home lorhs . sometime i was feel like going out and not going home for days lorhs . haiis ! too boring until i dontknow what to do lorhs . haiis !! i miss him again . grrrs ! he was sooo missed by me niiahs . he was the one who make me smile again . in my life , there always a darkness in it but now my darkness is far away from me liao . today i didnt go school because i was too tired of going to school lorhs but then i got to chiiong for my al the fcuking works that i didnt do at all . sooooo stress lorhs , everyday face the com and do all the lj works until soooo fcuking hate com lorhs . haiis !! can my teacher stop giving me works marhs ? i cant finish it by time larhs . i am human , ok ? i need rest , ok ? i not those robot that always working non stop lorhs . tired of works in school and one thing is that my school is sooooooooo boring man . like shyt sial . nothing to do lorhs , walk here and there around the school but then is like nothing for me to do lorhs . haiis !! can i fcuking leave the school now ? can i quit school now ? but then now i learning web design lorhs , that what i want learn sial . i cant give up on it . school to me is boring , lesson more boring , teacher always sing the same tones and song to me . omgomgomg !!! i will sick of it man . is just like a pill for me to sleep all days long . haiis ! baka !!! omgomgomg !!! school suck man . audition more suck man . now the audi so lag , how am i going to play well ? haiis ! i found out that my skill is really drop alot sial . my 4 key now like noob shyt , my 8 key now like shyt too . haiis ! my BU haiis , i really need to train on my fcuking BU sial . why cant i do all the waves ? ppl can do waves and yet i cant . haiis ! i sooooooooooooo nooooooooob noooooow !! grrrrrrrrrrs !! can the admit do something to the lag marhs ? one day they dont solve the lag = my days leave lorhs . haiis !! got a feeling of quitting audi sial . soo many ppl quit lorhs , leave me in audi . i will bored with the audi lag lorhs . grrrrrs !!

Friends is for ?!

2008-08-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

i got a bunch of lies . why must all this happen on me ?! i dont get it at all . fine , you think you treat me like a replacement so fine . stop doing all this to me because i just simply hate you alot . you think you all suit to be my true friend marhs ? look into the mirror larhs . i dont need all this larhs . you all msged me in the morning and ask me want meet you all after school , so i asked where to meet you all and where you all want go ? did you all tell me where to meet or what or not ? nopes right ?! dont blame me larhs . didnt say clear , you all want me know where the hell to find you all ?! wtf larhs horhs . you all went to lan , did you all tell me ? no lorhs ? when you all msged me in the morning that time , i say i want go watch movie but did you all tell me where to meet or what or not ? never tell me anything larhs . accuse me ? so nice to accuse me horhs ? fine larhs . this call friend arrhs ? friend accuse friend what is all this ? i want to watch the show but i dont remember the title . you want me to remember everything is it ? fcuk larhs . when she msg me that time , she told me to ask you but then you all didnt bother to reply it . wtf . wasting my sms lorhs . i text you a msg but did you reply ? no ? you all so "wuxin" sial , ps me and ownself go happy . then sua lorhs . since you all want do until like that then ok . dont ask me out larhs . who is true friend to me , i can see clearly liao . i wont believe any single words from anyone liao . all are liar lorhs . when you online in audi that time , i was omfg . oops ! i reply her that time , i told you all to come and my hse then decide but then she didnt reply my msg , so dao of her . omgomg ! i dont need all those larhs . still need i tell you in audi . i had write so clear in the msg liao . she reply me that you all want watch movie but in the end , you all are in the lan . what is all lj things ?! since you all dont bother to read the msg , might as well you all kindly delete my number larhs . dont need to waste your sim slot for my number larhs . if you all saw it what i wrote then fine lorhs or anyone told you about my blog then fine lorhs . i was stooooooopiid to believe every single words that you all say , now i know the true liao . all are not real at all . acting a show for me only . thanks for the show arrhs . the show very nice and well done worhs . omfg !! eeeks ! dont need you all to accompany me liao larhs . since you all so like to ps me then ok lorhs . i can find my own new friend derhs . i can walk around and make new friend all this . maybe i will find some new friend who is true friend to me . maybe i will find some of the friend or bunch of friend will went through up and down with me and wont ps me derhs . ooooo . hmms , should i go rest or audi but then audi will saw them , fine . i got my other friend in audi . i can make friend all the world . hahas ! so im kind of know what are true friends is liao . can i say that friend forever are a lie ? oooooo ok , i think i better dont continue it larhs . just remember in my heart can liao . i hate being accused by other when i not in wrong at all . fine fine , you all like pull the FCUKING blame on me . then let it be barhs . this what you all done to me and i really FCUKING hate it . i always being accuse but then i wont pull the blame aways because no point if i pull that lj blame on other , in the end they will at my back and say is my FAULT . so i take it lorhs . i keep take it and take it but sometime is over my fcuking limit horhs . i wont takie it anymore . ooooo you think you all soooo clever and want to bully me ?! oooo yarhs , i seems like soo nice to being bullier worhs . sometime i should act stooopiid , idiot , blur and blabla . oooo acting is sooooo tired sial . i dont want act larhs . shall i change myself to someone better than everyone or ?! hmmms , ok ok . there are something i just feel like saying out larhs . since you all cant take it horhs , so jolly well leave lorhs . i wont ask you to stay and read larhs . thank for viewing my FCUKING blog worhs . lolls ! nana know what all this liao . oooo , i almost forget something . ~-x3bebex3-~ , he went to hospital for operation but yet im waiting for his msg . im worry about him sial . he promise he will fight the battle derhs . if he leave , what about me sial ? who going to peii me audi in midnight all ?! omgomg ! he haven msg me yet . soooooo worry for him !! haiis ! hope he will fine . nothing will happen to him derhs . if it happen , i wont let him off . i will hate him for what he had make the promise . maybe some of you dontknow about it or what larhs . but then i will care about his operation derhs . maybe all having fun outside and forget about it . i will kind of wtf larhs . you all are a great friend or gans of him . =] nana dont say it more toward larhs . stop saying anything liao . can just treat me like a fool reading nonsence in my own blog . ooo . is my blog lorhs . so i can post all lj things on my blog , maybe you see liao not happy but i wont ask you to stay longer when you are not happy barhs . i will advise you to leave my blog derhs . lolls ! ok ok . everything or every lj things i will stop here and post another fcuking time . oooo byeeeeees . lolls ! lalalalas !

Tired of it liao !

2008-07-28T20:28:00.002+08:00

everyone seems to love emo that much so fine larhs . since you all want emo right ? then go ahead and emo larhs . dont find me for anwei all this . i dont want anwei anyone who love emo that much , i not anyone listening ear larhs . when you all emo then find me ? im your who ? i am sheena not your who larhs . fcuk off larhs . this my blog , i can write everything i like . if you hate me , pls jolly well fcukoff from my blog larhs . everyone are liar to me larhs . why cant you all be happy mehs ? happy wont kill you only . emo is killing me now . emo will kill me one day , if you all keep saying that you are emo . my gan mummy , idontknow what i can help her larhs . just now she msg me that she think of that person again . she cant let go that person . why must she holding on with that fcuking empty shell ?! if that empty shell will filled again then good larhs . but seems like that shell wont be filled back liao larhs . she say that guy is special to her . how special is that person ?! haiis ! forget it larhs . i going to let go chulong liao larhs . i wont hold on liao larhs . no matter what , he is just nothing to me liao . i dont need anyone care about my life larhs . my parent doesnt care about it , why must i care ? why must everyone cares ? since they dont want cares about me then forget it . my mummy care about outsider more than me . im just nothing to her . i not her daughter . she dont care about my life , why i must bother about her ? she always vex anger on me . she can care about outsider stomach so much . outsider told her , they are hungry . she will cook a nice food for them or order good food to them . im her daughter but she never do that at all . she care about other than me . im her nothing at all . i really hate it larhs . im her own blood daughter and yet she dont bother about me . fine lorhs . i not her daughter , i not important in her life . she willing to help other ppl then helping me . i ask her to cook for me and yet she got alot of comment . then forget it larhs . i dont want eat lorhs . let me hunger to die larhs . i die better larhs . everything is solve . everyone dont need to worry about me . im nothing to anyone liao . im trash bag only . always collect rubbish for you all . i dont understand why cant you all understand me more mehs ? what i need , do you all know or not ? my mummy only know how to slam the door infront of me larhs . what else she know ? i really fcuking no mood lorhs . you all treat me as what ? i dont get it at all . since you all care me so much but did you all understand what i wanted or not ? i guess , you all dontknow what i wanted at all . i like a fool to everyone larhs . needed me then call me larhs . pls larhs , i not a replacement at all . what i need a true friend not what larhs . if you think you are true friend to me ? think twice larhs . i was just so nothing to anyone liao . better be myself larhs , im a sooo stoopiid . i had lose of trust liao and i dont know who to believe anymore . nobody can believe liao . who can i rely on ? nobody can rely on liao . seems my parent doesnt care about me so i die nobody business . i told myself not to cry anymore but then sometime i really tired liao . i keep tahan and told myself not to cry but i cant take it liao . i will go crazy soon larhs . i better sent to imh better larhs . when i crazy that time , i wont know anyone liao . i will forget everyone . forget all the sad memories that everyone give me . forget all the things that everyone did to me . better forget it larhs . i need to get a brainwash all this liao . haiis ! i dont want post liao . i better go and sleep or what larhs . haiis ! T_T i hate it larhs .

Breathless in my life

2008-07-26T20:48:00.002+08:00

should i attach again or not ? sometime i was wondering that will i be someone's good girlfriend marhs ? or what ? there is time i feel like crying out . i really totally feel breathless liao . can time stop moving ? haiis . when i saw couple walk pass me when they are so sweet , i will smile and wish that the couple is me and my boyfriend but i was dreaming only . how i envy that ppl got someone love them so much and willing to do everything for them . haiis ! who will be the one that will love me and i love him back derhs . there is a time i was wondering lorhs . should i love you or not ? i told myself not to love you anymore . but i trying my best to do so , dont love you maybe is better for me . you are just like a knife stab into my heart deeply . you are the knife that spoil my beautiful memories . you are the knife that destroy my life like mad . you are just a knife , can hurt me so deeply . who can be the one to heal my wound ?! now im breathless to fight for everythings . fighting all the long , i guess it wont end . why not i just let go ? let go will be better for me and i wont be suffering liao . keep fighting it , i will feel tired of it . hais ! hoping that everything that i make up the decision , i wont regret barhs . i got a feeling of disown all my gan family and lead my own life . or should i mia from everyones ? how long can i mia from them ? one day i also must face up everything again . friends is what ? everyone say friends is someone who will went up and down with you when you got problem . haiis ! idontknow larhs . and this few weeks i getting sleepy for no reason . i had enough of sleep time and yet im sleepy . wtf ! what wrong with me ? anyone can tell me what wrong with me ? i sleep for 12 or more hrs in a day barhs . is it sometime wrong with my sleeping hrs ? DOCTOR ~ ~ i need advise ! lolls ! doctor , i guess i going to visit you soon . haiis ! keep going to polyclinic this month . keep going to polyclinic to see doctor because of my sickness . i seems like so weak lorhs . i go polyclinic horhs , i i hope the doctor sent to go tan tock seng hospital larhs . one short check what wrong with me larhs . lolls ! i go bang wall better larhs . *BANG BANG BANG BANG !* lolls ! btw i had level up for my audition liao . now level 26 backup . wow ! i had waited for leveling and now i had level liao . ytd i just level only . hahas ! =] now i want chiiong to main liao . after my main level , maybe i quit audi or leave it lorhs . hahas ! then i go chiiong my boy acc too . my boy acc going to level soon . few more exp to level 15 liao . hahas ! chiiong chiiong chiiong ! lolls ! when will i and spark wedding in audi ? or should i break with spark ? but we had 5 heart liao . i want ring on top of my head marhs . i want the ring keep changing lerhhs . but then spark seems like never online liao . i dont want a inactive cpl lerhhs . i need to a cpl that will be active lorhs . =.= i stop posting until here liao .

Sheena is here to post @ 26 July 08 ; 9.18pm . x3

Boring .

2008-07-22T08:42:00.004+08:00

lolls ! cant audi today barrhs . because got patching and serve is down . is siians lorhs . nothing to do at home , no audi i can die larhs . feel sleepy this few days , dontknow what is the reason causing me so sleepy . haiis ! ytd i was audi but i cant audi well , keep miss so much . i dontknow why i cant audi well larhs . is siians lorhs . *yawns .* hahas ! now in school is boring lorhs . got to do the works that my teacher give me , i cant even bother to do lorhs . just wanna sleep only . my eyes going to close soon . =.= hahas ! lalalas ! no audi then i do what ?! no game for me to play lorhs . forget it larhs , today go home and sleep barhs . get a nice sleep at home so i wont keep yawning so much liao . btw DD had a blog and friendster liao . ytd medmed jie , lubgal and me in msn was busy with our blog and friendster . =.= hahas ! idontknow whatever the blog skin had change liao marhs . i forget how to change the blog layout to template liao . hahas ! friendster seems like dont have any friends yet . nobody is adding or what . leave it first . when i free then i make the friendster profile barhs . hahas ! keep bleeding keep bleeding bleeding love . my love seems like bleeding . maybe i going to change my blog skin again . dont want put elmo skin liao . change to other . BORING ~ ~ who going to takecares of me ?! who going to be the one that will love me ?! who going to take me high ?! who who ?! thinking of it , i feel like crying . none of a guys is good derhs . guys always lie that they love us when they dont . haiis ! why guys so heartless than girls ?! can girls be heartless like guy does ?! so that girls wont be hurt anymore . once a guy broke with a girl when they are together so long and yet the guy seems like not sad about it . why guy can take it so easy ?! guy always treat relationship as what ?! they think is a game ?! is not game at all lorhs . you treat relationship as a game to fool with it , pls do think of the girl feeling that you are fooling with it . maybe the girl wont know that you are fooling with her feeling but she will love you as much as you did . you think girls are toy to you guys ?! we are not toy at all . in the end , we are still human being that will got feeling with it derhs . we know what is hurt lorhs . some how , guy wont know how hurt they had hurted the girl . girl cant act like nothing happen when they are broke up . *keep bleeding keep keep keep bleeding love ~ .* hahas ! i hope that i can so heartless like guys lorhs . wow ! too heartless , ppl will hate you so i wont be so heartless . i will be abit kind , caring , loving barrhs but the most i want be heartless lorhs . ahahahahs ! lalalas ! nana is getting boring in school and at home lorhs . BORING ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ hahas ! i dont feel like going to school liao . everyone out there must be reading my blog and feel so angry or what because i say guy are heartless . the fact is that guys are heartless marhs . am i wrong ?! lolls ! i post all this not saying anyone . no offence at all . if you read this and you are unhappy with so you can choose to leave my blog . because is my blog so i can post anything i like . dont need anyone to give me any comment about it . thanks for your comment if you want give me but then i wont want any comment from you guys at all . lolls !

Tag Replied . =X

2008-07-21T17:01:00.003+08:00

Tag Reply here ;

Sheena ; vel♥ : =.= i never talk lanjiao wei lerhhs . i bo lanjiao how to talk ?! lolls ! rofl . come flood lorhs . my tagboard "welcome" you lorhs . ._. thank for saying my name out , my middle name not yaosiew lahrs . keep calling me yaosiew . lalalas ! you can catch me then say larhs . lolls ! i never play catching with you . chao gina is you larhs . i where got white hair and wrinkles ? i think is you got wrinkles and white hair liao . gina game is mean to play right ?! i still young mehs , so i must play gina game with you lorhs . =X i grow up liao . see , i now big girl liao . =X hahas ! pity me for ?! i where got kelian ?! mai bian wo larhs . bite ahyi arrhs . *bite bite* bian wo , you shuang ? you biantai arhs ?! bian own niece also will shuang . =.= fcuk with lj is shuang marhs . lolls ! you bian wo , i not shuang liao . i want bian you back too . you bad what . lolls ! what that ?! nothing marhs . fcuking come tag me ?! wa , still fcuking worhs . lolls ! flood barrhs . waiting for your flood to come only . lalalas ! give me ANGBAO horhs , if not i bite you arhs . =X where got waste the paper ?! i dont need you burn me plain paper derhs . wipe my ass lerhhs . lolls . ellos , now the hell got toilet paper lorhs . yarhs yarhs , you are "caring" . chao gina again ?! see , you always call me chao gina or yaosiew derhs . my tagboard hate you lorhs . =X that is your problem , ppl tag me no problem and you tag me got problem . lolls ! my tagboard wont suck derhs . only you suck lorhs . =X like me ?! thanks worhs . im the owner of the tagboard marhs . must be like me then like who ? YAOSIEW AH YI !!

Don't say you love me .

2008-07-20T14:44:00.003+08:00

dont say you love me when you didnt mean it . i just hate to heard it when you say you love me but you didnt mean it at all . haiis . whenever you told me , you love me and i feel happy to heard it but when i knew that you dont even love me at all . what the point of saying that you love me ?! i thought that you are the one who will love me but i was wrong . dont say you love me anymore , i dont need to heard that word anymore . if you really love me , prove it to me that you love me . dont keep say that you love me when you dont prove it . how am i going to believe that you love me or not . i dont know why must you lie to me when you dont love me at all . i not a fool to you larhs . you think that you play with my feeling is fun ?! you are wrong larhs . once you said that you love me , is hurt me . the most you say , i get hurt more . but then is ok with me to get hurt , i want you to know how painful when you get hurt . you must try it yourself and know how painful is it . EMO IS MY LIFE ! EMO REPLACE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE LIAO . never again , i will believe you liao . always said that you only love me but in your other hand , you love other girls too . you think what ?! every girls will believe what you say ?! you think im stoopiid is it ?! keep lying to me that you love me all this . mai post about this liao . is a boring day for me sial . nothing to do at home , i keep play audi until want sleep liao . when i was in audi but bo ppl play with me derhs . keep online offline in audi , ppl will think im siao larhs . when can wedding in audi ?! maybe wont be wedding barhs , just leave it like that lorhs . wedding because i want the ring only . what is true love ?! hahas ! i think i should go back to my lalalas and sleep liao . so sleepy ! *yawns .*

what is freedom ?!

2008-07-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

what is freedom ? i dont know why some of ppl look down on paikia ?! they also is human being right ? just that they dont like study only marhs , is that what other ppl thinking of that paikia is trash ? why cannot everyone get second chance ? once we make one mistake then everyone dont trust us anymore ? nobody is perfect at all , you think you are as perfect as what ppl thought of you ? you are wrong , maybe you look perfect in your outlook but not your inlook . is you are perfect , what about other ?! look into your mirror and see whether you are perfect or not lorhs . what is freedom ?! freedom is nothing barhs . freedom is liar . freedom make us made mistake . freedom cant control you . everyone needed to be controlled only . lead of control , we make mistake . control too much , we feel stress . being too control is not what we want . we just need some control from parent only . parent always think that control us strictly and we wont make mistake but they are wrong . the most they control us , the most we feel stressed . am i wrong to say that ?! tell me am i wrong to say that larhs . every teenage like me , just needed more caring from parent , control us with limit , freedom more , understanding us . but parent always think they are right . when parent wanted us home but we dont wish to go home so early at all . go home , is boring . slacking at outside too long also will boring . sometime staying at home too long , will rotten derhs . =.= i guess i dont know what is freedom at all . i just want what i wanted only . i found that my parent dont even trust me at all . T_T always mistaken me derhs . i find myself fcuking hopeless and useless lorhs . other treat me like a trash big . when you needed a trash big to throw away your stuff , im that trash big of everyone . when they need you , they will find you . but they dont need you , they throw you away . hais . forget it larhs . i dont wish to say liao . lolls !

grrrs ! im sick

2008-07-15T15:28:00.002+08:00

grrs ! i am sick nowadays . my flu didnt recover since my holiday till now . yet i having sore throat and headache . wth is that ?! i dont like to fall sick lorhs . sick make me feel like dying because need to eat medicine all this . eeks man . i dont like to eat medicine derhs . so erxin and nan chi lorhs . =.= i was like totally dont feel like eating or what . keep making myself hungry for long hrs . -SICK = BANG WALL !- i want bang wall ! *bang bang bang my head on the wall* grrrs !! sick is suck man . ppl wont fall sick and yet im the one falling sick for so long . i want get rid off illness now . *sick , pls go away . i dont want to fall sick anymore . pls come another days . i want be healthy nana not sick nana .* lolls ! now having headache sial . feel like bang wall lorhs . feeling giddy now . eat medicine seems like not helping me . how how ?! should i go hospital and stay there ?! puii ! touchwood ! lolls ! medicine cant help then what can help ?! i wish sick no need to eat medicine lorhs . better lorhs , then i dont need to suffer from eating medicine liao . omgomg ! sibei hungry but i dont know eat what lerhhs . =.= ! tiainxin for sale but tianxin is mine so cannot how sell to other bad guys . i will help her look out for good daddy not bad daddy . you think you suit to be my daddy ?! i must see first whether you suit to be my daddy or not lorhs . hahas ! im mummy's watermelon and mummy is my greenapple . nobody can snatch her from me . dont steal my mummy away from me larhs . she mine , you know ?! i guess you all wont know . now let you all know barhs . i love my gan mummy ! tianxin not for sale for time being . i will help her derhs . want buy her ?! ask me first . hahas ! mummy , nobody want you then i want you . i will marry you derhs . we marry in other country larhs . want baby , we adopt or take other ppl sperms lorhs . =X hahas ! dont jealous . i know you all love me . but i love you all too . i love my gans family , ok ?! but i love my dardar most . hahas ! TIANXIN LOOKING FOR HUSBAND ! COME TAG ME AND TELL ME WHETHER YOU SUIT TO BE MY DADDY MARHS . LELONG LELONG LEONG , TIANXIN FOR SALE ! NANA NOT FOR SALE LIAO ! T___T NANA IS BELONG TO SOMEONE LIAO . nana want mummy ! nana love mummy . mummy kill nana ! i let mama kill nana larhs . dont snatch my mama aways . T____T lolls ! i love my gans family and dardar lot . they are mine . dont snatch them from me ! i will kill you all if you all snatch them away . i will bite until you bleed and die . *bite bad ppl .

fcukoff if you dont love me .

2008-07-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

hais . nothing much happen currently . i keep audi every single day just to forget everything in the past . btw i found my cpl in audi liao . we two like very close nowadays . im wondering why everyone treat me like a baby ? i know i look like a baby to you all but you all keep protecting me away from the world , i want to step out of this world and see everything in my own eyes only . love me as who i am , ok ? i know you all care for me but then treat me as baby wont help you all anything derhs . i know you want me to be your girl but then i choose to leave you because im tired of everythings liao . chulong , loving you so long and yet what i got ? i got nothing from you at all . 心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意 , 黑夜我还想着你 . i dont know what should i do or what . i keep think of you in middle of night , i hope i wont drop any tears down but my tears just drop down . hais ! my audi cpl treat me very good but i hope my cpl will treat me this way till the end . sometime i was thinking and missing you like fcuk but i didnt blame anyone for missing you . im suffering all the long and you are just living happily in your life . i hope i wont suffer anymore but the fact is that i still suffering . forget you is what i want but i could not forget you at all . how am i going to forget ?! any problem between us but we must solve it , nothing will stop me from loving you and i will try my best to forget you . i will find someone who will love me derhs . waiting for you , is i willing to do so . nobody force me to wait for you derhs . i fall for you since the date i started know you , chulong . i dont care whether you will see this blog or what . i just writing out my own feeling and thought , you all unhappy with what i write then forget it . just jolly will fcuk off from my blog lorhs . LOLLS ~ chulong , one day i will forget you and not going to love anymore . hais ! every guys said that i love you , omg . that words can hurt girl feelings . always say that you love me but then in the end , you choose to leave and never even bother about my feeling . you treat me as girlfriend or puppy ?! im human being after all and not a puppy to anyone . love me then leave me ?! fun is it ?! why not , i do it on you guys and you guy know how is the feeling larhs . i can be hongster anytime derhs . as long as i found someone that i like , i wont be hongster liao . hahas ! how to be tiongxim when you found your boy is hongster ? what will you do ?! hong with him or act like nothing happen ?! i cant act like nothing barhs . learn how to be tiongxim and how to be hongster too ?! lolls ! i wont be hongster derhs larhs . if i be hongster then everyone who know me will fcuking hate me alot derhs barhs . hahas ! =]

in school also nothing to do lorhs . so i come blog to post my posts . hahas ! i start to miss my dar liao . he got to surrender his handphone lorhs . then i very sians lorhs . hahas ! T_T imissyou , dar . =[

i very boring larhs . my mummy end at 2pm , i end at 4.3opm . is so tired lorhs . not fair lorhs .

im back again . hahas !

2008-07-08T18:50:00.002+08:00

oops , i didnt post for 1 weeks liao . woots , that was long barrhs . lolls ! hahas ! im back to post again . hmms , what should i start ? hahas ! 7 july , i start school liao . first day of school but then i still in holiday mood larhs . sians . i went to school for half day because i not feeling well so i went home after lesson . so i went to see doctor for my flu and skin problem . i was sick for one whole month barrhs . i didnt never see doctor about the past few weeks at all , i was staying at home because i thought is normal flu larhs but then is not lorhs . my nose was blocked and my nose inside was swollen and for my itchy rashes is seems like very worse but then cant help barrhs . hahas ! the doctor sent me national skin central there to check my skin problem barrhs . i waited at polyclinic to see the doctor almost 1 hrs haven reach my queue , will get dulan of waiting lorhs . by the time , i go in and see doctor going to 5pm liao and waited for my medication dont know until what time lorhs . =.= angry lorhs . when i reach home , going to 7pm liao . wa , i see doctor so long worhs . lolls ! after my birthday that day , i guess i was all the way staying at home barrhs . didnt want go out lorhs . just dont know why and i dont have the mood of going out at all . =.= hmms , i think friday i went out with my honey and mummy . because my honey want buy handphone and ask me to accompany him , wtf . he bought N78 liao . *JEALOUS ! grrrs , i want buy that phone too . i think better not taking that phone barrhs . i want change other phone . hahas ! after meet honey then i and mummy went to causeway to watch "dont mess with the zohan" that movie . omg , that show is funny , can ? li'l kid cant go see . hahas ! lolls . jkjk ! =/ i stop posting until here . tatas ! free then post barrhs .

Wee , i had turn 17 years old liao . =]

2008-07-01T23:38:00.005+08:00

3o June 2oo8 ; nothing happen .

i didnt go out at 3o July at all . i was at home all the way . because my sister came home with my daddy . she bought her two child to our hse . omg , i saw xin hui , my mood totally change . to see her smile , i felt happy . hahas ! so my daddy call me to go down and eat after our lunch , we all went home . but then lai en wanted to play see saw but then the weather so hot so my sister dont let her go and play . hahas ! in the end , she cant play see saw at all . nothing happen at home barrhs . keep chatting on msn with ppl . i went to audi and play few round . my 5k have gone . tio eat up my cash lorhs . 5k like this fly sial . angry about it larhs . i was totally bo mood to play when i saw my 5k was gone . haiis . forget it larhs . i have make a report to gm liao larhs . if gm dont want return my cash then i continue to report lorhs . hahas !

o1 July 2oo8 ; my birthday .

today is my birthday and i recieve 8 msg from hao hao , di , honey , kor , daddy , sweetheart , siti , mummy and ah min but then mummy didnt sent me msg but she bought something for me . thanks mummy for the gift . =] minkai have bought me present , he was the first person told me that he want pass me present and i was surprise that he remember my birthday worhs . hahas ! i went out with mummy and daddy . we went to watch movie . hahas ! we watch "get smart" if i not wrong . that movie is kena of boring barhs . i want watch "You Don't Mess With the Zohan" that movie but then got to find other ppl who is 16 years old . that show is N16 lorhs . hahas ! =] i didnt really watch "Get Smart" that show at all because i find very boring larhs . ps larhs , i dont have the mood to watch at all . that why i didnt enjoy watching larhs . hahas ! some how , ppl do remember my birthday and wish me but then the rest dont remember it then fine lorhs . hahas ! unlike last year , nobody even msg me and wish me at all . this year better abit larhs . for my next year birthday , i hope i could open chalet and ask my friend come . hahas ! i want ton on my birthday but then not everyone can ton lorhs . must see whether they free or not first marhs . hahas ! tatas !

ehhs , i stop posting from here liao . hahas !

today i enjoy it . but abit boring larhs .

i love all my gans family and elmo .

: FCUK Q : IM FREE AGAIN !

2008-06-29T02:07:00.002+08:00

28 June 2008 ; i went out with friends .

wow ! today i went to suntec city there for audi event but the event is so fcuking BORING . hahas ! =] but then i meet my honey and my didi . i cant find all my BL friends at the event lorhs . all dont know at where . hahas ! i didnt see the competitions at all . i was walking all the suntec lorhs . LOLLS ! btw i want say something is that im free and single but unavailable . hahas ! i get to know alot of ppl in audi liao . wow ! i found my gan benden and im his gan shagua . because i want give him a special name of gans . hahas ! i dont think today much thing happen larhs . lolls ! my b'day coming soon . and my b'day on tues some more sials . hahas ! i going out with ppl again . hahas ! i want more gans larhs . want see how many gan i have , just click on my beloved to see lorhs . hahas ! i making collecting of gan family . lolls ! im boring , ok ? just dont care what i write larhs . =.= i very boring larhs .

27 June 2008 ; thing happen on this date .

i have been emo for quite a long time liao . i keep thinking of him and i cant deny that i dont love him . i cant deny that i never miss him . he always on my mind no matter . =] when i close my eyes , his name is resound in my mind . when i open my eyes , is just a dream that im dreaming during my sleep . he is someone who i loved deeply . i thought i really have forget about him but then the fact that i haven forget him yet . everything i did , just because of him . i did try to make myself busy in the past just to forget about time and him . but then i fail to forget him . i find that im useless and hopeless . no need to know why im saying myself so useless and hopeless . i just feel that im rubbish to other ppl . when need me , come find me . when dont need me that time , throw me away . you think im rubbish is it ? you want then use it . when you didnt need it , just throw it . what is this ? i not rubbish of yours or who . im SHEENA , im who i am . hate me , just fcuk off larhs . dont need say that all excuse or what larhs , i wont believe it . time pass so fast . one turn , i had waited for him almost 2 years plus liao . the time that i waited for him is long barrhs . i also wasted my time on him this 2 years plus because i didnt want to have any bf or what . i wanted to be single and continue to wait for him . i have been sitting at old same place for so long liao yet he didnt come and bring me away . other ppl trying to bring me away but then i refuse too because i want him to come and bring me away not other ppl . i keep struggling this 2 years plus , because i wanted to be someone else not someone that is stoopid . now i have to think liao . i cant go back to stoopid nana liao . be someone else , i promise my ah gong liao . maybe ah gong scare that i get hurt but then i want ah gong to trust me that i wont let myself being hurt and i want other ppl to get hurt , to let them know being hurted feeling is not good . and let them know what is the feeling that i had . let them try waiting for someone for years or months . i guess they wont know the feeling at all . i dont want say liao . if i continue to say , i guess other ppl think is boring or what . so i stop blogging from here . hahas !

i getting more and more tired of it . T_T

2008-06-24T21:12:00.004+08:00

i didnt blog for few days liao . now im back to blog again . time is coming to any end of my life . i scared to give up everything that i got . but then i will love my gans they all the most . thing that i done , i cant undone liao . i going to face it . maybe i will lead into girl home or hostel or what , i really hope that my case will be close soon . i dont want go police station to make statement all this . dont ask me what happen and dont ask me why . they are just a bomb of mine . anytime , anywhere , any place the bomb will be explore . my feeling for him is getting fading away and i found that he not my type . he not the one that i wanted . i dont wish to say anything about what my type of guys that i like the most . i think i stop saying my own feeling and stress that i having now . well , this few weeks i cant even go out at all . wtf , but then i dont blame my dad for not letting me go out not because i dont want go out or what . this few weeks , i was just like a cat who had locked at home . =] i start to love staying at home then go out because i can save my money and not spending any money at outside . hahas ! thanks for my darling who always peii me sms when i feel bored , emo or sad . he will try to make me smile . =] iloveyou , darling . he is just my gan darling . when i think of it , it hunting me . so why must i keep thinking of it ? i hope that i can die now and nothing is hunting me anymore . oops , sorry . i talk about my feeling again . =X btw i get to know alot of ppl in audi liao . my friends list getting bigger than last time . =] all my gans family is loved by me , can ? they are the reason i survive , they are the one that i loved , they are my part of my life . they make my life chanqe . last time i not hongster but now i hong with other ppl . i really become hongster liao . hahas ! btw i getting bored at home that why i will find my darling to sms with me because he can entertain me derhs . sians , i want my N81 8GB . i want use that phone . i love N81 8GB alot , but then my W580i still haven come back to my hand yet . my W580i still in service . haiis , service so long liao . is not back yet . because they got to change new keypad for me . =] when i got my phone back , maybe i not using it liao . because my mother want use . BOOOO !! i give her all my phone that i dont want use , she didnt want use . bleahs . she dont like sony ericsson phone , she prefer nokia phone than sony . i anything derhs . you give me use what phone , i also use it . if you give me nokia 3310 , i also use . i can take that phone to throw ppl if ppl make me angry larhs . see who head or phone strong ? hahas ! =]

ok , i think i should go sleep liao . =] if not , i going to wake up very late . this few day , i didnt sleep well at all . =] hahas !

; saded ; 1

2008-06-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

i really hate it . i found that my parent they didnt trusted me before and now i got bf just like i didnt have in the past . i dont know what to do larhs . being single is better barrhs . ytd is our one month anniversary . other ppl will bring their gf go out to eat and bla bla . if the bf is busy with stuff , also will msg and say happy one month anniversary . but he didnt do that . so i wont bother anymore . be myself better . want go out with others guy is my business . go hong other guy ? hmms , i still need to think about it . last time derhs me , can flirt with other guy but now i had change liao . go back to my old self ? i want to go back to my old self . lolls ! btw i got one gan darling again . this time round , my darling is so funny lorhs . =.-" i want go work ! but then i dont have any lobang for job yet . i dont want go MAC , KFC , burger king , pizza hut and bla bla to work . the salary is not enough for me to use . if i work at those place that i mention above , i guess my salary i can finish it up within two days time . haiis ! i wish i could go back to DONUT FACTORY to work but then i had quit that job liao because of one person inside and make me fed up with her ! next time i got chance to go donut factory to buy donut , i want her to serve me and i going to make her fed up with me . [: what a good customer am i . omg , i wish i could go donut factory with my gan mummy and friends . hahas ! my darling so good lorhs , peii me sms lorhs . omgomg , the msg that my darling sent me is kind of funny lorhs . hahas ! mummy have come back from malaysia liao . i think she came back on 15 june which fall on father day that time , i was with my daddy that time . my dad and i went to suntec for pc show but i wanted to get a laptop but then my dad dont want . haiis ! hahas ! is ok if my dad dont bought me a laptop . i will get one laptop for myself . hahas ! after the pc show , we went to food court to get somethings to eat because im hungry . i bought minced meat tofu with rice dont know which store . that foods is suck man . i dont like it . taste very eeks . hahas ! after finish my food , we went home liao . =.-" i guess i had give up some of the thing liao . even i thought to give up in relationship but then i dont want . things that cannot be hold on , so i wont hold on anymore . sometime i still will think of it larhs . haiis . i think i need to get a rest liao , im tired . so i will stop my posting until here . lolls !

; song lyrics ; 1

2008-06-14T18:30:00.003+08:00

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's
that we're not fighting
It couldn't be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that
I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep

And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

i had found that song lyrics liao . but i still haven found the song only . LOLLS ! hahas ! that song is really sweet and nice . to those ppl who have listen before the song , you will know what is mean liao . hahas ! i guess i need to find that song out and post in my blog to let you all listen it . hahas ! i cant post the song in my post at all . im angry lorhs . who can teach me how to post song in a post ?? lolls !! i so noob in posting song in my post lorhs .

; sians ; 1

2008-06-12T15:15:00.002+08:00

lolls ! ytd i didnt go out at all because my gan mummy had went to malaysia liao . dont know when then come back . lolls !! i still cant find a job that i want lorhs . i going to buy newspaper to write liao larhs . but then i lazy to read newspaper for job derhs . LOLLS !! staying at home to me is DIE ! because my dad will kp at me for no reason . walao , kena kp by my dad this few days for no reason . keep kp me non stop , he dont feel tired mehs ? i listen until my ear blast liao lorhs . if i everyday stay at home , i guess i will kena kp for whole day or what lorhs . lolls !! boooo , my tagboard will be dead soon and my blog also going to dead too . i dont know what to do this few days at home . i wanted to go out but nobody to find . diao ! i guess nothing will happen this few days barrhs , i just wondering when will i found a job lorhs . LOLLS !! getting sian and bored at home . wanted to go find my friend but then i dont want find her liao . if i find her , she confirm with her bf derhs . that why i rather stay home and wait for my gan mummy to return from malaysia lorhs . MAMA KILL NANA ! lolls ! mama kill nana is i stared first then mummy jiu use to it . she opposite the sentence lorhs . she keep saying that NANA KILL MAMA but then this sentence had become a joke to me and mummy lurrhs . so fun . we got alot of lame idea came out from our brain . just because we are bored and nobody entertain us then we ownself entertain ourself lorhs . sometime mummy still meow meow infront of me , omgomg . i just answer her back with woof lorhs . dog and cat are mix together become what ? hmms , meow woof ?! what a lame is it . lolls ! ok ok , i think i should stop posting liao . i go play my AUDITION liao . hahas !

; happy ; 1

2008-06-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

yeahs , today went to watch KUNG FU PANDA with my gan mummy . hahas !! my stoopiid boyfriend also went to watch KUNG FU PANDA at ps lorhs . mummy and i went to amk hub to watch that movie . is a nice show , go and watch that movie .

hahas !! this movie is a nice movie that i really enjoy about it . mummy and i sit on couple seat in amk hub all this . wow ! after that mummy and i went to meet my gan didi and his gf at compass point , we went to mummy's hse there derhs dont know what place there to slack lorhs . hahas ! we all went home around 9 plus and didi , his gf and me went to bus stop there to wait for bus to go home . but then i take cab home because i want use com and post blog . hahas ! sians , maybe tml i cant go out barrhs . my daddy really very suck larhs . today he kp me in the phone , so angry larhs . is ok , let him kp lorhs . i need a job lorhs . if not , my dad want kp me until i going to rot liao . lolls ! hahas !! i going to watch more movie that coming soon . hahas ! i crazy watching movie nowadays but i dont know have money to watch lorhs . hahas ! when i got money , i will try to save money because nowadays i short of money lorhs . need money so despo larhs . hahas ! i go watch my tv liao . dont want post liao .

; hurtful ; 2

2008-06-09T19:32:00.003+08:00

i really dont know what to say about it . why i put your call this song is because i want let him to listen to that song . hope he get the meaning of that song . i think i should put the your call lyrics up here .

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

waiting for your call , i'm sick , call i'm angry

call i'm desperate for your voice

listening to the song we used to sing
in the car, do you remember
butterfly, early summer
it's playing on repeat,
just like when we would meet
like when we would meet

'cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine
stay with me tonight

stripped and polished, i am new, i am fresh
i am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
'cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes,
what's your fantasy?

'cause i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine
stay with me tonight

and i'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment
makes me want to come back home
x4

'cause i was born to tell you that i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you mine
stay with me tonight

i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to,
to make you minestay with me tonight

is the song that i love it alot . sometime i listen to that song , my tears start to flow down . haiis ! still got one song sing by secondhand serenade . the title is fall for you . that song also very sweet . hope that he will go listen to the song barrhs . haiis ! mai post liao . just post song lyrics that i want lorhs . but i cant find fall for you that song derhs lyrics . when i found the song , i will post over here and put the song up here too . hahas ! tatas !

; hurtful ; 1

2008-06-07T00:58:00.005+08:00

haiis , i dont know what should i say lerhhs . is passed 4 days liao , no msg from him at all . i slowly for him to msg me lorhs . lolls ! if he think that i will msg him so let see will i msg him or not lorhs . i really cannot take it liao larhs . really tired of it . thought of serious in a relationship but now i dont see a point of being serious larhs . being serious in a relationship but what i got in the end ? i got nothing and leave alot of problem with myself . even though i dont seems like a person who will serious with stuff but time to being serious , i will be serious . i hate myself ; i hope i could just jump down from a building to end my life lorhs . i have enough of suffering from all this larhs . very tired and hurtful larhs . i know i have my gans with me when i needed them . im glad to have them as my gans family . hais ! i got 2 gan didi now . one of my di is very funny lorhs and one more is very quiet larhs . fun to joke , bully my MONKEY didi lorhs . hahas !! maybe tml going to find job liao . start to go find job barrhs . if not , i going to rot at home liao . i dont want rot at home lorhs . i need to go work lorhs . no working life = no money life . i need money to go shopping . omgomg , i love shopping man . since the last shopping with my friends they all , i didnt got chance to go shopping liao . yarhs , i did shopping but didnt buy anything that i want . so sians lorhs . can only see , cannot touch . haiis !! i want money . i want buy BF shirt , skinny , shoes , tee shirt and bla bla bla . omg omg , i got alot of thing to buy sial . dont jealous if i buy things . because i cant being filled with everythings derhs . what i saw , i will wanna buy liao . ps , my hand very itchy derhs . if i didnt spend my money , i will go and find stuff to buy . you give me 100 billion also not enough derhs . if i got 1oo billion , i will buy one hse , one car and the rest i go shopping liao . hahas !! spendthrift , that is me . got money , i can buy everything that i want liao . mai say about my shopping liao larhs . lolls ! let forget everything that is now and past barrhs . i only want remember all the happy moment that i got . forget all the hurt moment . *booo !! sians , my dumbass korkor didnt msg me . if not , i can bully my dumbass kor lorhs . hahas !! love to bully my dumbass kor , he will entertain me if i really bored . i guess my gan mummy , kor and MONKEY di , they didnt fail to make me laugh . their joke is what i wont forget . whenever i was bored , emo or sad , they wont fail to make me laugh . the smile that i carry on it is just a fake smile . when they make me smile and laugh , that is when you all can see me smile happily . what they trying to do , i will still laugh with them . hahas !! i just love them so much ; i really thanks to them to be my side when i was emo , sad or what . hahas ! love them so much until i dont know my love is ending or not . finally he msg me liao . his hp sot sot . and didnt msg me . the hp sot sot then buy new one larhs . nana going to buy phone liao . i going to buy back nokia phone liao . i fall in love with nokia phone lorhs . lolls . maybe my sony ericsson give my mother use then i use my nokia 7610 and i going to buy prepaid and use lorhs . i miss prepaid sial . too long never use prepaid and i scare i use prepaid will be noob lorhs . lolls . since the date i use line and never touch prepaid card liao . if i use prepaid then i can save my phone bill liao . my bill going to blast soon liao . i keep sms alot and call out alot lorhs . shit larhs , i thought of save my bill from going high and now i dont think i can save my bill from going high again larhs . wtf ! i want save my bill going to blast larhs . haiis ! i still emo for no reason larhs . when he sms me , i thought he will sent me "i miss you and bla bla" but then i recieve the msg , he sent me "yo girl , my hp back" . imissyou is it hard to type out ? i dont know larhs . i need a romantic guy larhs . a guy that wont be violence and know how to be sweet toward me . hais ! forget it larhs . mai say liao larhs . the most i say , i get emo more larhs . *emo-ing in process . going to crazy in process too . haiis ! i want give up larhs . but then i dont know what mummy think larhs . if i break with hao , i will be get kp again larhs . haiis !

hurt by you . T_T

2008-06-05T18:14:00.003+08:00

he didnt contact me for two days liao . haiis ! i dont know what should i do lorhs . nana going to crazy soon larhs if he still like this larhs . i could not hold on anymore larhs . i will break down anytime derhs . i really hate it larhs . sometime i feel like crying for no reason and i really dont like this feeling that you are giving me . i got stead like dont have lorhs . out of sudden , i was emo-ing . i scare i will leave and dont want come back anymore . leave this place for time being and forget all the unhappy memories that everyone is giving me in the past . now you want to be free ; so im letting you fly . cause i know in my heart babe , our love will never die . you'll always be a part of me . when time reach , i will let you fly and wont hold you back anymore . even though you was wondering why i didnt msg you or what is because i thought that you will msg or call even i never do so . but you didnt , i dont care if you read this post or what larhs . im tired of it and feel like letting go liao . you make me do this derhs . maybe the feeling no longer there liao and i cant feel the love from you liao . where is the happy time that we will together ?? where is all this ?? is already gone and sheena is just trying to believe that this relationship will last but now i dont think it will . you told me that i can rely on you but is seems like no point liao . i rather stand up by myself and dont rely on anyone liao . you told me before that you will wait for me to rely on you , wait for me to change . to me is nothing liao . i wont do anything for you or what . i really hate myself for loving you . hao hao , hope you know what i want and what i need barrhs . want be someone's bf , should know what is bf role play and what their girl want from them . but then i was wondering is it i didnt play my role well or what ?? i really dont know larhs . let the time pass liao larhs . walk one step and see first . can this relationship carry on or not larhs . if really cannot , then i dont know liao . yarhs , i hate my bf to be a violence person . being violence wont solve any problem . being violence is what i hate the most . being violence toward my own friends is really make me mad about it . i wont show out that i am angry or what . no point to do so , is just that if i show out that i am angry what you all will think ?? my heart has been break by someone who i loved him for 2 years and the wound wasnt heal back . ppl told me that time will heal my wound but time passed and my wound wasnt heal at all . my li'l heart cannot being break again , if my li'l heart is break again i guess it wont be heal back anymore . i wasted my 2 years of waiting for him and didnt want attach that time . yarhs , i did attach during this 2 years of waiting for him . whom i stead with , i didnt serious about relationship that time . no point to being serious in relationship larhs . now i dont know should i serious about it or what . sometime i was wondering that should i or should i not . im in a mess now . this mess will be solve one fine day by myself . i going to solve this mess that i got now , the mess that i got is not easy to do so and i was trying to rely on someone can help me but now i think no need anyone help liao . mai post liao . the most i post , the most i get emo . btw , i just want say something is that , all the tag wont be reply soon and the tag reply will be late barrhs or i wont even want reply any tag from you all larhs . is up to you , see you all want tag or not larhs . i dont force you all to tag me derhs . i can leave my tag dead anytime i want derhs .

Funny

2008-06-04T21:54:00.006+08:00

tag replies ;

sheena ; Josephine : lolls . bleahs . what boxim ? i wu xim , ok ?? if boxim , i die liao lorhs . lolls ! i know you very good larhs . but then i dont want save your link as josephine sweetheart lerhhs .

ytd i got exam for my POD but then i didnt even study at all . is MCQ lorhs . just click on the answer will do . lolls . some of them say the exams is hard but some say easy . is hard or easy lerhhs ? to me like so so lerhhs . because i anyhow do derhs mar . no time to revise liao . and i didnt really revise at all . see , nana so pro horhs . ppl revise so hard and i can slack everyday sial . hahas ! after my test finish , mummy reply my msg liao . ask me want go find houjie , sam , that guy lorhs . when mummy get prepare liao , she came to hougang to find me because we need to take bus go woodland and find them siol . lolls . then that guy called mummy and told mummy that his mother hire a tuition teacher for him and he cant come out . wtf ! but then we took bus go woodland to find my two didi . hahas !! mummy and i went to meet houjie , sam and one more person that i dont wish to list out the name of his . dont ask why . i wont say the reason barrhs . lolls ! when meet houjie di and sam di that time , i kena bully by HOUJIE(MONKEY) . i think i need to go hospital to check for injury barrhs . got alot internal injury barrhs . houjie di , i guess you got to pay for my hospital bill lorhs . wtf ! grrrs !! i also bully my didi(MONKEY) , he very nice to bully lorhs . hahas ! he also good in entertain ppl arrhs . not bad larhs . but sad thing is that sam too quiet liao . dont know how to entertain him lorhs . hahas ! we all slack at mac about 1 or 2 hrs plus to wait for that guy to come larhs . hahas !! when he reach horhs , omg . but i hack care him larhs . i continue to bully my houjie di lorhs . hahas !! that guy msg mummy said that he jealous that mummy play with houjie , i was like LOLLS lorhs . mummy very fierce lorhs , reply him that "you can join in right? " wow , what a nice reply . hahas ! i want say something . ytd msn with that guy , he asked me for my number but then i told him that once my number is give , i wont give again . he very childish lorhs , you know what ?? i saw you all what he reply and what i sent . hahas !! ytd horhs , i took someone wallet and saw his noob pix on the ez link arrhs . his name is CHIN HOU JIE . who arrhs ??

	szeson: SHEENA ! =) haii:	wat ur number i thought you got my number ?
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	lols .
	szeson:
	szeson:	del away
	szeson:	=x
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	orhs .
	szeson:	ps
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	then good for you .
	szeson:	walao
	szeson:	give la
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	lolls.
	szeson:	give!!
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	want my number for what ?
	szeson:	waa lihai lor dunwan give
	szeson:	nvm
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	my number is give once , wont give again .
	szeson:	dun fren u liao
	szeson:	byebye
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	mai be childish .
	szeson:	dun tok to m,i
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	grow up larhs .
	szeson:	duno u
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	dont know
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	ccb
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	bye larhs
	szeson:	-.-
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	i disown you as my daddy
	szeson:	waaaa
	szeson:	haiz
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	why ?? everytime keep disown and threaten us is it ??
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	now my turn to say that to you .
	szeson:	i oso nv say wan disown u la
	szeson:	is them not u ok
	szeson:	understand?
	szeson:	wth
	szeson:	haiz
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	ellos , you tell mummy what ??
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	you want disown everyone of us is it ??
	szeson:	not all la
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	including mummy
	szeson:	wth
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	dont pang wei larhs .
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	i saw that mssg you sent her
	szeson:	mummy disown cos she my rl de not gan ok
	szeson:	understand
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	what dry ??
	szeson:	wth la u all dun understand wat i wan say de lei always tink i wan disown
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	i want soup want larhs .
	szeson:	lame
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	dont understand ? mummy msg you , you also never reply .
	szeson:	she msg wat
	szeson:	i nv receive lor
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	the inbox full larhs .
	szeson:	my inbox is empty gir;
	szeson:	girl
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	=.-"
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	you still want disown me mar ??
	szeson:	no la
	szeson:	den u wan me as ur papa mah?
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	if want , then i first to disown you as my daddy
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	uhs ,
	szeson:	uh is wat
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	you suit to be my daddy mehs ??
	szeson:	oh tat mean u dunwan mi be ur daddy uh
	szeson:	la
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	mummy deserve million time of good guy than you
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	you suit to be or not ??
	szeson:	haiz nvm la dunwan dunwan lor anyway haven noe u all de time i oso lonely no ppl wan de
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	glad that you know yourself .
	szeson:	ya la ya la not suit
	szeson:	haiz
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	ohs , you wont suit to be my daddy
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	my daddy must be a good guy and know how to be a clever ppl .
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	*person
	szeson:	argh i dun care le la haiz u all dunwan mi as daddy jiu sua la tian xin dun wan mi oso sua le la haiz go find better papa la ok
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	whatever i say to you , doesnt concern mummy
	szeson:	if u dunwan mi as daddy den got mummy n i her stead den i m extra
	SHEENA ! =) haii:	what you mean ?

im so clever to post here siol . hahas ! i just want let everyone to read only and make him shameful only . lolls !! then he call mummy to complain about me worhs . i and houjie was in the conference with him lorhs . he so stoopid lorhs . hahas !! he ask mummy to ask me why , mummy good in acting arrhs . lolls ! then i put into the conference liao . i started to kp him liao . he was ll larhs . so nice to kp on him siol . lolls . also waste my saliva larhs . puiis , at least i can kp him back . i really cant tahan him liao . he step one guai lan infront of us . want step guai lan , need to think first lorhs . i also can be guai lan to him , i just respect him as "DADDY" . now i wont respect him liao larhs . he want guai lan then i guai lan with him lorhs . mai post liao . today nothing happen much lorhs . i dont mind if you saw this post lorhs , if you unhappy what i write . then so sorry about it larhs . hahas !!

ccb

2008-06-03T00:12:00.005+08:00

to everyone out there ;

[lonelyguyz91@hotmail.com] - a guy that so bastard .
if you saw this email above before , kindly help me to track that person out . no matter what , this guy i wont let him off . to him is fun to do that , ask ppl to accept the webcam is it ?? you think you very handsome ?? you think you are who ?? ellos , you cant grow up is it ?? do all this stuff via msn , dont find it shame mar ?? omg , i think you dont know what is shameful barrhs . need ppl to teach what is shameful mean mar ?? hmms , nobody willing to teach barrhs . just stop all this nonsence before i track you and call police . or you want me hang this case to police straight ? you how old liao ?? trying to be li'l kid is it ?? dont be so childish larhs . lonelyguyz sibo ? you lonely arrhs ?? need ppl to help you kua lj is it ?? go geylang larhs , there got alot of hot babe waiting for you siol . LOLLS !! dare to ask ppl to accept the webcam , why dont dare to show face ? hum arrhs ?? do pcc infront of the webcam siol , horny also no need to do it in the webcam larhs . horny then find your girl to go hse and help you larhs . omg , i am too kind to him liao . omg omg . this type of guy live in singapore is a waste of time . kindly get him out and give him some whack or bla bla larhs . i saw this type of guy in singapore is wasting time only . waiting for die if i not wrong .

evil ; monster : the early on derhs tag i reply is wrong . now i reply here . that guy i will track him by myself or ask someone to do it for me . that guy i wont let it off . no matter what , this matter i ownself track or find liao . no need to chop him or what . just give him a lesson will do . if give him a lesson is not enough then sorry to him arrhs . maybe i will call police liao . i wont let this matter off easily liao . i going to get this guy out or do something to him .

to lonelyguyz91 ; if you got chance to read this blog . i can say you are so clever of it . hahas !! to you is funny and fun to do that but to me is a shameful thing in this world that i never see before . the most shameful thing that you did , omg . i am wondering why you live in this world and did some shameful thing to everyone or girls barrhs . maybe some of girl saw liao , horny with you barrhs . omg omg . horny ? hmms , horny dont suit this kind of ppl like you .

LOLLS !!

2008-06-01T13:58:00.003+08:00

arghs !! i haven finish my mini project yet . now need ppl help me think and draw liao . wtf !! tml is deadline for everything that i own lorhs . ccb . booooo !!! monster ; evil can last barrhs . i want break all my record in the past . hahas !!! i think i have break alot of my record liao . now going to break one record jiu win liao . hahas !!! ps , im crazy liao . hahas !! and more thing , i want say is that i found one more gans in audi . that is my gan teddy bear , cute right ?? hahas !! now i looking for gan aiai , gan nuer , gan erzi , brother , gan jie , gan mei , gan honey , gan sour plum and alot of gans to find . hahas !! i got hao sister but dont have hao brother only . gan family going to become bigger liao . let spread our love around with your gan family they all . wow !! spreading love is what i can do but need save love for my monster larhs . later he jealous that i never love him . *bleahs ! my love is everywhere now . need love from me ? tell me , i give you some of my love to you . haahs !! my love is you , monster . loving you is what i can do now . loving a right person is hard to find and need time to search for it . i have found him now . he love me like how i love him . the love is going strong barrhs . never meet one day or more , i will miss him like a crazy girl barrhs . hahas !! nana going to crazy liao . on 2 june , which is today larhs .
i hate MONSTER !
he can ps me and peii his friends . then forget it larhs . he want like this then let it be . i really dont like it larhs . i hate guy treat girlfriend this way larhs . i also hate guy who is violence toward my own friends . you dont know how to be romantic toward a girl larhs . i dont know what to say about you larhs . really dont know what to say larhs . if you see this blog then just read lorhs . learn how to be a romantic guy and dont to be a violence guy . go internet to search how to be a romantic guy . if cannot search , nevermind . go ask your friends around you how to be a romantic guy barrhs . and just now in msn got someone added me , fcuk larhs . mai say liao . really hate it larhs . ccb . forget it larhs . when i free , i go find that horny guy . if want know the email , i give you . email of that lonely guy - lonelyguyz91@hotmail.com .
fcuk larhs , i dont know who is him larhs . i now want to hack care larhs . wait until i really free to find out barrhs .

arghs !!

2008-05-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

5 days never post liao . wtf !! arghs !! i think going to sick soon liao . my coughing still haven recover yet and now my voice abit funny liao . the weather nowadays very good sial . sometime raining , sometime so hot . when sibei hot , we all kpkb about hot and when is cold , we also want kpkb about it then we start to fall sick one by one . this 5 days , i was stressing about my project that i have own derhs . btw , I NOT DEBARRED . i can take test liao . wow ! i didnt go for the interview at all lorhs . then i not debarred , kind of happy and funny about it larhs . hehees !! so i going to work hard for my study liao . now my mood is back to study liao . i going to concentrate in my study , but then i will get boring larhs . hahas ! on o3o6o8 is my EXAMS OF POD !! im so stress and scare about this exam sial . i didnt learn anything at all . i was sleeping during teacher is teaching lorhs . how am i going to know what to study ??? i didnt pay attention during lesson at all . now i strewed up with my project now . character design , i still haven do my mini project . i also dont know what should i draw lorhs . grrrs !! tml meeting my sweetheart , mummy and bie . yeahs , long time never meet my sweetheart liao . tml is meeting her at compass point . omg , i missed her can ?! hahas !! in the same , i also missing my MONSTER . hehees . just now he called me and chated on phone with him awhile . he bully me ; i bully him . hahas !! but then he always kena bully by me only . hahas !!! love to bully him . the more i bully him , the more i love him . hahas !! =] jealous ? mai jealous , ok ?? nana love everyone . my love is spreading to everyone now . *let spread our love to everyone . LOLLS !! im lame and boring , can ?? after hang up with monster then my dumbass korkor jiu msg me , then i turn my aim to my kor . i bully him in msg . hahas !! kena bully by me , so sad . kor , you are so poor thing worhs . hahas !!! but then i really thanks him to wake up while i was thinking what to draw , almost fall asleep . hahas !! he want me to treat him chocolate but i dont never say i want treat him any chocolate bar . he so BHB sial . hahas !! i asked him mai cry , save his tears for sichuan ppl . they need water now . so dont waste your tears , tears also water mar . i am so kind to sichuan ppl and so bad to my kor . hahas !! i think my kor wont got chance to read this post at all . hahas ! sians , bo ppl peii me sms liao . arghs !! si korkor , so fast orhorhs liao . boring !!!! entertain me , can ? haiis !! i dont know why i so high now sial . my mother told me , i answer her back with funny tones lorhs . omg , i so high . i think milk make me drunk ?! no , i didnt touch any milk today . i want drink full cream milk now . arghs !!! *sheena stop all this , you are too high now . go sleep now . shoooo . eeeeeeeees !!! i want do my project but no ideal now . sheena wake up from the lalalas land now , ok ?? stop being so high at this moment . need to rush your project now . go do your project , ok ? psps ! im so boring , i trying to entertain myself in blog . hahas !! mai post liao , back to my project barrhs . booooooooooo !!!

we are together for 2 weeks and 1 days liao . wow ! hurry up one month . hahas !!! psps !! i really super duper high for no reason sial . bie , imissyou !! tml can meet you liao . yeahs , i can see you . bie , i going to find job . need to work liao if not , i will be rotten at home liao . then like this we will less meet liao . hahas !!

stoopiid friendster hai wo cannot reply comment and log out also . wtf !! arghs !! is ok , comment will reply late barrhs . hahas !!!! i go find ppl to entertain me first . tatas !!!

sians and tired larhs .

2008-05-25T20:40:00.002+08:00

today i wake at 1o am lerhhs . sibei early lorhs . ytd i slept at 4 am . i just have a 6 hrs sleep . is not enough for me derhs lorhs . bobiian , i wake up that early and sit infront of my com for so long hrs liao . went to audition to do my boy acc derhs license but then i fail about 3 - 4 times lorhs . in the end , i give up of doing so i asked my candy floss to help me . the license is passed by my candy floss and not me . my girl acc all the license is not i do derhs lorhs . i just play and ppl help me do license , like what you know ? to other i am noob larhs but then i admit that i am a noob . my skill had deproved alot liao . now i trying to train back my skill like last time larhs . but then i good in my beatup that what i know only . i also dont know why my beatup is good in it . today i play with mummy and other ppl . a funny thing that happen about 5 - 6 pm that time , --HORNIIE~x3 this girl came into our room and i was last person to go into the room larhs . horniie asked me go change into a noob cloths larhs . when i change into the noob cloths , is kind of funny and noob larhs . boo !! early on i play with my di and mummy larhs , but mummy leave the room when my ah gua friend came in . omg , his character sibei ah gua larhs . i keep on laughing on his character and i cant stop laughing larhs . is funny to see a ah gua dance with you and dress like a ah gua , you can imagine it ? hahas !! today alot of funny thing happen larhs . i dont want list it out larhs . wasting my time . hahas !! i missed my MONSTER ! hehees ! i think i should go sleep liao , tml i need to go school again . i keep on pon school larhs for no reason jiu pon larhs . sometime , i was wondering why should i continue study when i didnt have the mood to ? when i got the mood to go school and enjoy the laughed with my friends and came to works , i was stuck there and dont want to do it lorhs . wtf larhs . that person never came to school for so long and never kena debar lorhs . is unfair lorhs . i pon school for few days not few weeks lorhs . but then i had hand in the appeal form for debarment larhs . hope that i will be successful larhs . if my section head want me to retain half month , i can said that i rather quit school and go out work larhs . or maybe i will try to catch up with everything that i own lorhs . grrs !! nana dont like drawing in the first place and dont have the heart to learn drawing at all . drawing is not part of what i want . ==" i looking for lyrics of one song , and it is hard to find lorhs . booo !! i just want my regret sing by banky derhs lyrics only . nevermind , i try my best to search all the website for lyrics site until i found the song lyrics that i want . hoho !

wtf !

2008-05-24T18:03:00.005+08:00

ccb . my daddy always say thing to make me angry larhs . i didnt even do anything and kena kp . if he really dont want care about me , from last year he wont care about me and let me sign line all this larhs . fcuk larhs . just a police case that i got now . maybe this case will close or what , who know ? if really this case wont close derhs hua , then i believe the fact larhs . i dont want run away from this case liao larhs . after this case is over , i going to grow up and change to a good girl liao . dont want get involve with anything liao . be my parent good girl larhs . they always want me be good girl but i also make them angry and sad for what i did to them larhs . i going to be good girl and be good student too . hahas !! be good student , i confirm need to prove to my teacher liao larhs . arghs !! nana be good girl , nobody will believe it derhs . so i got to prove it . no matter what ppl think or say about me , i wont care liao . i want be a good girl , from a bad girl to a good girl and it take time to change . slowly see how i much i can change . dont look down on me or what . i can make it derhs . no need anyone to help me , i can help myself derhs . i know i make you all angry about me because i did thing that you all dont like . but then i really hate the way you all treat me larhs . am i transparent ? am i blind ? am i deaf ? or what ?? i really dont need so many friend at all . none of my friend is true . just some of them . what the point of making new friends that they wont cherish you as friends ? monday is my deadline of it . should i or should i not ? is a question for me to answer it . is a question that im thinking . is a question that make me hate myself . is a question that came to me so sudden . all is so sudden and happen to me . i really hate it larhs . fcuking fed up with it larhs . nobody know what im going to think or what should i do , i going to overcome everything that is happen now . i going to through by myself and not having anyone to help larhs . i dont want own anyone repay . so thing happen , i going to take it and believe it larhs . im tired of living in this fcuking world that i got . i am tired of what my parent going to treat me . i am tired of studying in a school that i dont like . i am tired of my classmate in ITE , none of them is friendly . except some of them i know is friendly . the rest is like shit larhs . hate it larhs . ITE is good mehs ? i dont find any good in ITE . i found something that i never thought of it . omg , is my classmate . oh my tian , this what ITE student is ? arghs !! mai waste my time in posting all the rubbish in my school larhs . back into the police case again , so how ?? should i go ? my parent confirm want me go derhs . but then haiis . mai say liao . angry larhs , ccb . my daddy really so heartless to me now . treat me like a toy pull here and there liao . just that this case happen , and my daddy now treat me so cold . then fine larhs , i ownself settle larhs . if you really want me go in then i go in larhs . you dont regret larhs . you always want me go in then now is the time to go in larhs . i go in , i will be bully bla bla . so let it be lorhs . when i come out , i will be freedom again derhs . 5 years for me to wait for my brother to come out , so i going to bear with it liao , after 5 years my brother will be come and free again like me . i missed my brother not beside me when i needed him . i missed the way that he will scold me when i did thing wrong at home . i missed the moment where we go out together and he bought me things , i know that my brother really love me but then i always make him mad about me . because not i want to make you angry about me derhs , is just that your sister is kind of naive . wo tian zhen bu shi wo yao derhs . kor , i really hope that you could beside me now and peii me for the moment when i get scolded by daddy and mummy . when i get scolded by daddy , you will say back but when you not there . nobody help me say back liao . T___T crying is useless larhs . i wont cry anymore or i wont drop any tears liao . haiis ! forget it larhs . nobody know what im thinking or what derhs larhs . i just want be like this larhs . let everything happen in the same time then i know what is die larhs . die maybe is what i thinking now . maybe i die , everything will stops lorhs . i living in this world is just a waste of it larhs . i should not exist in this world and knowing any of my friends . wow ! i really still thinking what next thing should i do ? should i die ? should i face it ? which one ?? tell me larhs ?? die , everything i wont be bother liao . facing it , i will stress and going to crazy soon . or i become a siao charbo also not better lerhhs . become siao at least , things happen i wont be so bother . i really thinking of it sials . maybe when you all read it , you will angry or what . i dont care . is my blog , i want post anything i like . if you really will angry about what i post then sorry about it larhs . bobiian , i really tired of it and want leave it liao . hoho !! nana will become crazy derhs .

you know what ?

2008-05-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

when in the bus , i did heard somethinq about you and my qan mummy chat about . when my mummy say about my brother , i have no mood to talk to you or mummy liao . i simply hate it larhs . to heard somethinq that my mummy told you about me , i really find it stoopiid to heard what you all are saying larhs . i hope i was deaf at that time and cant heard anything from you guy mouth . when i heard it , is hurt and make me emo . i really hate myself so much for being what am i ? im so stoopiid . foolish , naive and childish all the time . let you all worry about me , is a wrong thing that i should not let anyone to worry about me . i really totally hate it and feel like dying liao . i dont want suffer anymore , who really understand me ?? nobody if i not wrong . im tired of it liao . is time to let go everything that i have liao . stop bothering about me , can ?? leave me alone , can ?? i really cannot take it liao . i really missed my brother when he was around me . i miss the voice that he always scold me , talk to me . i miss the way that he treat me , i really missed my brother too much liao . if time could simply turn back , i want my brother to stay beside me and not leaving me . who can understand the feeling of losing your own blood brother/sister ?? this feeling is painful . who totally know me well ?? haiis . think about my feeling when you all doing anything larhs . nana really dont like it . being treat as puppet in the past , is really hurt and hate it . now i just want be myself and not changing to anyone else . i want the way that i am . not the way that you all want . i hate myself too much liao . i hope i can die now and not letting anyone to worry about me . sometime i do things right , i also get scolded . sometime i was wondering why , i being a good person also got problem with it ? i treat everyone nice and what you all did to me ? why must you do that to me ? being a good person , also will get bully or scolded . i dont want be any more good person liao larhs . i want be someone that nobody know . be someone that anti social , be someone that dont like to make friend with . be someone that everyone hate her . be someone that nobody will love her . i hate it when i trying to be a good person to you and you are trying to turn me down or trying to pull me away . i dont know what to do ? nana dont deserve anyone to love , care , worry about her . when i deserve something from you all , somebody will get jealous of me . i dont want liao . nana want give up larhs . dont stop me for doing something that i want . dont force me to make myself into a foolish person that you all never know . is hurtful that ppl always doing this to me . i hope i dont get anyone involve with the police case liao . let the police decide who should going in ? i dont want care anymore . my parent told me that they want let me die , when i heard what my parent say to me , my mind is blank and i was thinking of it . if i get into girl home or hostel , that mean i wont got a chance to study liao . and ppl will thought that im ahlian . yarhs , if im ahlian what can you all do ? i just a kid that dont have mindset yet . i still want play around and dont know anything happen at all . i am childish what can you all do ? scold me for being childish ? yarhs , im childish so what ? this what i am . this what i always want to be . i hate everyone who worry about me larhs . i hate myself for loving you . i hate myself for being so childish , i hate it . i hate everything i got now . i want let go . i doesnt want to care about it liao . let me be childish , naive , stoopiid barrhs . dont care about me . let me know what is the real feeling of fall down , being bully , being cheater . i want know the real feeling only . i dont want anyone be there for me when i was fall or what . i want stand up by myself .

arrrrrqqqhs !!

2008-05-20T19:48:00.004+08:00

today i didnt qo school because i overslept then i never qo school lorhs . went out with mummy . today i eat roti prata free because we never pay at all , we wanted to pay but nobody come so we just walk away and didnt pay lorhs . hahas !! i forqet what mummy order but i remember what i order only . hahas !! i order one cheese with eqq , one eqq prata and one can of pokka qreen tea lorhs . hahas !! after eatinq our food then we went to meet my bie . we slack at blk 918 derhs bball court there awhile after that mummy and i went to bie's hse lorhs . lolls ! just qo there watch dvd and see my bie playinq maple lorhs . sians larhs . i and mummy watchinq the eyes 1o at his hse after watchinq the eyes 1o then watch cartoon show . watch half way jiu never watch liao . mummy checkinq her friendster lorhs . then we waited her to check finish her friendster and hotmail . when she was checkinq , qot a qame that came crossed so we play until very hiqh larhs . after the qame , we went to point to eat after that went home liao . just now i went to audi awhile with mummy . today dont have mood to play audi at all . haiis ! i dont want post liao .

bie , i just want you to know that no matter what happen to us or what . you need to trust me . if you dont trust me , nobody qoinq to trust me liao and i dont want you to promise me anythinq . just dont promise me , ok ? just love me and trust me can liao . i will be happy that you trusted me . i will remember the happy time with you derhs . even thouqh i always cold toward you because i just cant qet use to it for time beinq only . after sometime , i will be qet use to it barrhs . i have alot of hurtful memories in the past and i also need to heal it so dont hurt me for this time . be there for me when i needed you , ok ? be the one that you always love me and be the one beside me only . haiis ! bie , iloveyou . dont do this to me liao , i really will qet hurt derhs . also mai jealous that i close with my mummy , just because we two had went throuqh the ups and downs toqether before . the time i spent with mummy is lonqer than everyone who i hanq out with . maybe i qet use to my mummy liao barrhs , when i needed her she was there for me in the past . i am qlad to have her as my mummy derhs . but i also very happy to have you in my life . bie , just remember that everythinq you want to do or say , kindly think of my feelinq then say or do . is hurtful when you say somethinq and dont do thinq that hurt other ppl too . other ppl is innocent derhs . they didnt anythinq to you or hurt you . bear in mind , baby will love you no matter last time how bad is you or what . if you willinq to chanqe then is a qood thinq for you larhs .

o.0

2008-05-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

2 days didnt meet my MONSTER liao . because my daddy larhs , dont let me qo out lorhs . dont let me qo , nevermind lerhhs . but then my daddy qround me from qoinq out if i not wronq . arqhs !! but then i have promise my qan mummy and monster they all to qo school liao even thouqh i dont want see that person's face lorhs . when i see her face , i feel so vex larhs . qrrrs !! i really hate it larhs . T___T i dont want to post liao larhs . i miss my MONSTER ! i have been spent 3 days of smsinq with my dumbass kor liao . hahas !! sms with him very funny lorhs . he kena bully by me lorhs . he is a bad kor kor lorhs , teach me bad thinq . hahas !!! this kor , i know him from audi . we are same clique ppl somemore lorhs . because qot one fun thinq happen on 17o5 in audi larhs . i dont want say larhs . is very funny larhs . hahas !! hmms , ytd mummy went malaysia with her parent . today she came back liao and she bouqht me a cj7 hp pouch lorhs . omq , i am so happy about it larhs . i love you , mummy !! you are the best to me . hahas !! bouqht somethinq for me at malaysia lorhs . i wish i can qo and claim now but is late liao and today i cant even qo out larhs . boo !!

MONSTER . i really want huq you . T__T nana is all about you in her mind . simply missinq you . how i wish you will beside me now . omq ! nana x3 haohao . bie , maybe i qoinq back to workinq liao . so will be less time to meet up barrhs . really want meet you everyday but i cant . my daddy will call me durinq lesson end or what derhs . haiis !! i really miss you larhs .

hmms . happy

2008-05-17T23:27:00.003+08:00

ytd i went to pasir ris there to slack with my mummy , bie and ah ma . hahas !! we watch CHOCOLATE , that thai show . i very envy for the qirl lorhs . that show sibei nice lorhs . must qo watch lorhs . today meet bie at bedok there . mummy and i playinq audi at xqame there . hahas !! bie wait for us to play finish lorhs . so poor thinq of him . must wait for us . hahas !! =) love him . after lan , we went to bedok there shop shop awhile jiu qo home liao . hahas !! almost forqet about today my malu days . *shy ! today morninq , i peii mummy and her mummy qo simei for meet the parent section . both of us , at the threatt there to listen to the principal talinq lorhs . i didnt even listen lorhs , almost fall asleep lorhs . nevermind lerhhs , i sit there and listen to my psp sonq . hahas ! after the talkinq then is question & answer larhs . qot one qirl have alot of question to ask lorhs . sit there until dulan larhs . mummy and me went to toilet after toilet , we went slack until they come out . qot food to eat , we will waitinq to eat only . hahas !! while eatinq , i also smsinq my bie . hahas ! but the malu part is cominq lorhs . hahas ! bie want eat somethinqs , so i help to pack some honey chicken for him . is very malu larhs , first time in simei i doinq this . wtf !!! arqhs !! at first , i take plate to pack the chicken winq . but her mummy told us to put into the plastic baq but the plate too biq in the end , mummy went to took cup and i went out first . very malu larhs , alot of ppl seeinq me takinq lorhs . wtf !!! malu !! *blush blush ! mummy come back from takinq the cup so we two very funny larhs . dont want use hand to take then use the cup and take . is funny until we keep lauqhinq larhs . finish of packinq the chicken winq into the cup liao , so we went off liao . hahas !! is my most malu thinq that i have did in school lorhs . wtf !! cannot believe it lorhs . nana so darinq and malu lorhs . T___T now everyone at home liao and my mummy emo aqain . haiis !! mai say about it and i qot one qor aqain liao . hahas !! so happy to have pro qor in audi lorhs . hahas !! nothinq much happen at all . on 15o8o8 , i and mummy went to airport there to slack barrhs . we qot nothinq to do mar . hahas !! when we will at airport i was smsinq with my bie all the way until my battery qoinq to empty lorhs . everyday can sms non stop derhs . hahas !! just love him lorhs . today my bie kena pinch , hit and btie by me and mummy . we are so bad . hahas !! but bie also bully us back lorhs . is called as revenqe . hahas !

bie , i love you . really enjoy my days with you . you make me smile all the time . never even stop makinq me smile derhs . i also cant stop thinkinq of you . but i promise you to qo school , ok ? i will qo school when i no mood or sick . i try not to pon school liao . hahas ! i wont chanqe to a bad qirl derhs . i will be your EVIL . the EVIL that you know and the EVIL that pinch you , hit you derhs . hahas !! i know is painful , sorry to hit you and pinch you all the time when we meet lorhs . bie , I LOVE YOU ! 16o5o8 is important day of ours . MONSTER ; EVIL are toqether as one . mwarks !

kind of happy !

2008-05-16T03:02:00.002+08:00

BOOO !! EVIL ; MONSTER . my MONSTER COOKIES is you . you are the COOKIES that i want eat only . hahas ! we stead on 16o5o8 ; simply qoinq crazy about it when i was with him . beinq loved by someone is really will crazy about it derhs . nana have stop all the emo liao since the date he came into my life . thinq keep to chanqe liao . MONSTER biebie , EVIL baby was just crazy about you and out of sudden just thinkinq of you . my monster cookies , you are the happy pill i qot now . this pill can make me crazy and happy non stop derhs . is you make me qo crazy . 16o5o8 , is the date that is important and not to forqet about it and this date will be love story . this story qot to continue on and not to let qo . hope this story wont be break unless thinq happen . hope thinq went smooth like what we thouqht . MONSTER ; you loved by EVIL . you are mine happy pill now on , nobody could be replaced you liao . no replacement is wanted at all . hahas !! MONSTER and EVIL are born to be toqether derhs . =)

Emo - inq In Process !

2008-05-11T22:57:00.003+08:00

i dont know why i keep emo-inq lorhs . fcuk larhs , i hate the feelinq that i qot now . the feelinq feel so bad and uncomfortable of it . sometimes , i keep feelinq to cry but i cant even cry it out . maybe qot somethinq blocked or what . this feelinq i qot is really suck man , is my first time qot this type of feelinq lorhs . nana really very tired of it and feel like endinq the life that i qot . nobody know the feelinq i have . because i cant even spell or explain it out , the feelinq very eeks . where is my lesbo ? where is my mummy ? where is them ?? i really needed them but haiis , i dont wish to fan them liao . haiis ! every niqht i start to qet emo , keep thinkinq of him and thinqs happeninq around me . even thouqh i went out with friends , out of sudden i start to emo and moody liao . T____T !! nana qoinq to break down anytime liao . hope that this feelinq can end early and not to have this feelinq aqain . i cant even hanq the feelinq i qot now , i am afraid i cant hanq this type of feelinq aqain . qrrs !! nowadays , dont have mood to audi or qo out at all . just feel like stayinq at home everyday and not qoinq to work or school or shoppinq at all . qonq qonq , i really need someone hit or punch it . only qonq qonq will let me hit . haiis , qonq qonq never entertain me anymore . who qoinq to entertain me like qonq qonq always do ? T___T i lose of trust to anyone lerhhs , cant trust anyone liao . hate it ! i dont want this feelinq aqain . pls , this feelinq shooo as far as it can . plus somemore , i qive ppl attitude for no reason too . really very hate it larhs . ppl talk to me nicely and i qive them a damn fcukinq attitude . really very sorry that i qive you quys attitude . dont wish to post liao .

attitude !

2008-05-11T01:32:00.003+08:00

nowadays , i keep havinq attitude problem . dont ask me why because i also dont know the reason of it . is really pissed off , make me feel so reqret when that person didnt do anythinq to me and qive them attitude . i am wonderinq whether my attitude is qettinq worse ?? last time my attitude not that worse than now lorhs , i wont anyhow attitude ppl . if my attitude really qettinq worse , i really very sorry about it . maybe i was thinkinq of him too much and makinq myself suffer so badly ?? i didnt want to be in this pattern derhs , i dont know why i will become like this now . dont know what happeninq to me at all ? i am wonderinq and i am thinkinq , what is qoinq on now ? even thouqh , my brother wont be there for me for years , i wont blame my brother treat me like this and i am qlad that i have this brother who really tauqht me to qrow up . to other ppl , i very quaii lan , i admit it . yarhs , i know i very quai lan and xia lan . but i will chanqe it , beinq childish is not i want at all . i also want be mature but i cant . nobody is there to quide me and teach me at all . i really hated myself of beinq a childish kid , but is the fact that i am childish . what to do ? attitude also not i want . childish also not i want . qrrs ! nana really very stoopiid larhs . why cant i forqet him ?? why ?? just simply forqet about him and forqet those words he tell me before . nana will be crazy one day ! before nana went crazy , nana want all friends of her to takecares of themselves . i qot debar for one of my module and now i dont think i qot chance to take test lorhs . fcuk larhs , just didnt attend the lesson and never hanq in the work only mar . not i dont want hanq in the work larhs , is because so many of the work keep come in one time , how to finish it in one short ? plus somemore , the work all i dont know how to do lorhs because i dont like drawinq at all . i took that course not because of drawinq is because i want learn html codes and create website for myself , create bloqskin for myself too . but drawinq is not in my mind set at all . if qot chance , i wish i could appeal not to havinq drawinq for me so i dont need to debar from that module larhs . ccb lorhs . debar me from that module why not just kick me out of the school ? hated beinq debar from module . i rather kick me out of the school lorhs , you all one short kick me of the course larhs . ._. arqhs ! debar debar !!! hate it man . freakinq hate it larhs . no point , they are teacher mar and i am just a student of their . i cant do anythinq or say back siol , fcuk larhs . if i really tio debar , i hope to quit school lorhs . but my friends dont let me quit school lorhs . dont know larhs , i was thinkinq of quit school now lorhs . but my dad dont let me transfer school . kind of sian larhs , cannot transfer school is ok lerhhs . but want me to face that person everyday in school , i cant take it larhs . i will arqhs larhs , i cant take it lorhs . qot to face her for 1 year and half months somemore lerhhs . so lonq way to qo sial , i scare i will sick of facinq her everydays lorhs . T______T , kindly let me quit school larhs . i really cannot take it derhs . dont force me to face her everyday lerhhs . i rather pon school is because not face her lorhs . i cannot pon because of my works haven hanq up . i cant finish derhs drawinq at all . ccb , my teacher keep qive us work non stop derhs . so many drawinq , i have owe liao . all the drawinq i haven hanq in at all and i still didnt even draw any of it lorhs . dont want say liao . *nana relax , just debar only .

to zhu . (if you qot chance to view my bloq)
you may think that i qive you attitude or what . i know myself well , i know that i qot attitude problem . beinq moody this few days is because thinqs happen to me is not smooth at all . i qot debar for my module and cant take test of it . is kind of stress to me , feel of quittinq school . you wont know derhs . if you cant take it , is fine for me . you can choose to iqnore me or what , because i wont qo find you if you find me keep qivinq you attitude lorhs .

SIANS !

2008-05-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

nowadays i qettinq more emo , i dont know why i keep emo lorhs . haiis ! maybe i thinkinq of him too much . maybe let time pass and i will forqet it when time passed lorhs . even thouqh i think of him is useless because he wont come back to me anymore liao . now i can do is to forqet all the past and recover my heal in my heart . i dont wish to qet hurt one more time liao , the hurt i qot it was too painful for me recover it and i dont know what to do . i always lost and nobody care about it . i qettinq more and more weaker than last time liao , keep havinq a feelinq of fallinq down . i am afraid if i fall down this time round , dont know can i stand up aqain like now or not because nobody will be hold me tiqht liao . i feelinq lonely and sad , i dont want qo fan ppl about my feelinq nowadays because i found that i dont have any listeninq ear liao , nobody was there to listen to my problem or nobody is there to quide me like last time . i know i am childish but no choice , is my character . nobody is there to teach me not to be childish or what . let me by myself , be the person that i want . no more love from anyone , no more care from anyone . there is nothinq i leave now . all i leave is my qan mummy , ah qonq , sister and lesbo only . who else i qot ?? all are leavinq now , only this 4 ppl wont leave me because i need them all the time . if dont have them , my life will be empty like shit only . i very thankful to have them because only them can make me smile aqain and if not them , i dont know what i want now . no boyfriend is a qood thinq of mine , i dont want boyfriend is because once you qot boyfriend everythinq need to inform them about it . is like someone controllinq your life lorhs . be SINGLE is what i want . sinqle too lonq is not qood derhs because will jealous other ppl who qot stead and find yourself dont have stead somethinq you wish to have boyfriends riqht now . ppl can flirt with any one but i wont . no point of flirt lorhs . flirt is not my lfie but i will flirt once a while only . flirt with the quy that i want . hahas !! dont want post liao , i want sleep lerhhs . no time to post anythinq larhs . >.<

weddinq in audition !

2008-05-01T22:39:00.007+08:00

hahas !! i qot somethinq to post and let everyone see it . hahas !!

i have weddinq on 3o.o4.o8 ; 8.o5 pm with -CLIQUE-LOVE . sorry if i never invite you all for my weddinq or sorry that i never inform you all about my weddinq party . really very SORRY , friends . hahas ! is because i dont want let someone come to our weddinq derhs . is out of sudden then we want weddinq derhs . time to show you the pix liao .

Our Weddinq On 3o.o4.o8 .

weddinq time , but still haven invite ppl yet . hahas !!

conqrats to -CLIQUE-LOVE(eleanor) && -CLIQUE-DUMB(sheena) weddinq pass .

eleanor qot somethinq for herself in weddinq . hahas !!

that is our love license . is my idea of puttinq it . kind of funny and lame larhs . make is special then that person mar . hahas !!

this what i want post for today . maybe tml still qot thinq to post for you quys to see it . if not , my bloq qoinq to dead liao . hahas !!

so lonq didnt bloq lerhhs .

2008-04-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

i know my bloq is dead , i didnt post for 2 weeks plus lerhhs . this 2 weeks , i didnt even wanna bloq or what . hahas ! just no mood to post at all , everyday i reach home just play audi or what only and never thouqht of cominq to my bloq and post anythinq only . nowadays , i dont need so many friends in my life . all i need is my qan mummy , ah qonq , sister and some other is enouqh lerhhs . even thouqh i have friends around me but i didnt wanna contact them or what because i just found that too many friends not a qood thinq at all , maybe they will back stab you behind the back of yours and you wont know what they did behind you or what . true friends is enouqh , i dont need those friends who do thinqs behind me derhs . and now i know what is friend , i hate to have relationship lerhhs . is hurtful when they treat you like a puppet . he said that he will treat me as puppet then treat me as stead or what . beinq a puppet , the feelinq is sux . what can a puppet can do ?? all i know is that puppet wont bite/fiqht/quarrel with anyone at all . now i am free aqain lerhhs , i can be myself and not be someone else . all i know is just leave everythinq and not bother about it first , i notice that i have chanqe but the chanqe wont hurt anyone or what derhs . is just that i want do everythinq by myself and not askinq ppl helpinq . because of my brother , i qot to qrow up lerhhs . cannot always need brother or friends to help derhs , if one day they leave , i wont know derhs . haiis . i know want a bf can treat me qood , love me , dote me but i want is tionqxim bf not those relationship will break up so early derhs . haiis . is hard to find man , all quys is just bastard me larhs . when they wanted you , they will treat you qood and when they qot you into their hand , they can treat you bad or even dont want reply msq all what siial . so bastard larhs , want us so must treasure us larhs . dont take us a qrain or what lerhhs . we are human beinq not animals or what larhs . haiis . not all the quys that i know is some of them is that type of ppl larhs . i dont want post liao , tml or what then i post it aqain . hahas !! so qood , tml no schoolinq . hehees !

2008-04-11T02:04:00.002+08:00

do i look a qirl that dont deserve a quy that can love and care me mar ?? i am wonderinq why i cant find a person that i like and he like me too derhs ?? i dont know why heaven is treatinq me this way and i dont know why everythinq that i used to have but now is seems like qone liiao . im all about him only and i am always thinkinq of the past and the thinqs happeninq , nobody know the feelinq of lostinq brother/sister . even thouqh i am sinqle but i hate to sinqle because all the love that i need not only friends could qive derhs . i need is a bf to love me is that hard to qet it , i didnt hope much at all . maybe my life should not have any r/s at all , everytime i stead with a person but i didnt want last lonq with that person at all because is not the quy i want derhs . i love quy who is tall , skinny , cute derhs . i know i am too naive liiao , as lonq as you found a quy that love you and you like derhs can lerhhs , no need to bother about the look all this derhs . but i could not found it at all . my mummy maybe happy with someone that she like and that quy like him too , i just hope that they two could last . i have been sinqle about 3 years liiao , sinqle so lonq liiao . can anyone believe that i sinqle so lonq liiao ? nobody could believe it derhs . i sinqle so lonq and i can remind sinqle till i found lorhs . beinq sinqle is somethinq that i dont like the most . i very envy ppl have stead derhs . when couple i saw , i was just hopinq that i could like them but i know i cant be like them derhs . nobody will like me derhs , who want me to their qf . i am so rude and behave like a boy but this what my character are . to other , i am very noise all this larhs , im noise so what can i do ? sometime i always wonderinq why i dont deserve qood quy derhs . i am so useless to other ppl , i cant even hold on to a quy that i like or what larhs . just leave it liiao , maybe time can heal my wound barrhs . *sleepy .

2008-04-09T03:43:00.003+08:00

on 4 april , is cindy birthday . we went out on her birthday to celebrate with her . only kyo and me went . just 3 of us went out without zen and ah qirl around . we just havinq fun on that days itself . hahas !! first - we meet at dhoby qhaut , 2pm but kyo and i was late . but i reach there is about 2 plus then i went to find cindy , cindy and i waitinq for KYO to come . KYO ALWAYS LATE DERHS . he never be early abit derhs , always is us waitinq for him only . hahas !! after we all meet liiao , we went to PS derhs foodcourt there to have lunch . Anqeline need to qo work liiao so we peii her qo cine there awhile . when we reach cine there , she went down to chanqe cloths but we went to more than words there and shop awhile . see qot what thinq to buy in the end i cant find anythinq to buy but cindy bouqht some sweet to eat then she came up and find us awhile , after that we all went to far east but she went to her work place . the 3 of us walk to far east there , cindy wanted to buy drink so we went to 7-eleven there to buy POKKA GREEN TEA then kyo wanted to qo 77th streets to buy earinq . while kyo lookinq at earinq , cindy and i went into the shop see thinqs . see see , also didnt saw what i want . kyo went toilet to put on his earinq , dots larhs . hahas !! so cindy and i went into a shop but i forqet the shop name larhs . cindy bouqht somethinq for her but i bouqht nothinq at all because i cant even qet thinqs that i want at all . when kyo came out from toilet like cant find us like this larhs , he called me so i came out of the shop then he walk toward , we went into the shop to wait for cindy . hahas !! after that we leave far east then we went to find zen at there where where larhs . idk the place we went larhs . hahas !! i just follow kyo only mar . when we reach there , i msq zen then zen came down and find us lorhs . while waitinq for zen , cindy went to toilet so lonq . zen reach liiao , he saw us . we waited for cindy at toilet outside , we wait wait but cindy still haven come out . i called her but she never pick up calls . arqhs !! when cindy come out then we walk to foodcourt there because zen want eat , so we sit at one coffeeshop and the two quys went to order food to eat . i didnt eat anythinq because i not hunqry at first . hahas !! after eat , we went to zen office there awhile larhs . after that we wanted to qo east coast but no bus to qo there larhs , in the end we went to vivocity there lorhs . when we reach there , i start to say IM HUNGRY ! kyo went to candy empire there to buy sweet larhs . kyo so qood siial , treat me chocolate . so we walk around the shop , in the end what i choose ?? i choose M&M chocolate , i know is lame larhs . because there dont have chocolate that i like larhs . choose finish liiao , kyo pay . is cost 26 buck worhs . hahas !! i wanted to qo foodcourt there to see what to eat but they have close liiao . in the end we went to toast bread there to eat bread and eqq larhs . i treat kyo one set of french toast lorhs , we have order liiao , so went back to the place where cindy is sittinq larhs . the eqq qot to ownself open larhs . dirty my hand worhs . kyo dont know how open eqq . hahas !! but sit beside us is two old couple . the uncle keep starinq at us siials . while we waitinq for our french toast to come , cindy went to order ice milo and eqq . our french toast come , you know what happen ?? the old couple is leavinq and the auntie very qood lerhhs . my ice milo , she hit on it and my ice milo like this qone but kena cindy lorhs . cindy sibei suay larhs . her cloths kena my milo lorhs . but the auntie pay me back my ice milo lorhs . if not , i want complain lorhs . hahas !! finish our toast , we went to see star outside vivocity but no many star to see larhs . hahas !! watch liiao , we all went home liiao . by the time i reach home , no bus to take liiao . hahas !! i reach home and sleep liiao . too tired liiao . hahas !! so fun on that day larhs .

2008-04-09T03:22:00.002+08:00

to other ppl thouqht i have chanqe . but i didnt , is my own self . im that rude qirl that you know . the way that i answer back maybe rude . but im tryinq to let qo thinq only . too many for me to handle it now , im always tryinq to fill up all my time at once but i was just totally lost only larhs . really nobody understand me at all , who know what i want ?? nobody could understand it at all . maybe just hopinq that my friends could just understand me more larhs . but nobody could do that to me , i was just cryinq alone and dont know what should i do larhs . the thinqs that i didnt want happen but is happeinq out of sudden derhs , i hope i could just love everyone now and treasure them more before i leave with reqret . idk why i find that my love is dead . i cant even love anyone at all . i keep thinkinq of him and hope that he could turn back and look at me one more time . i feel like huqqinq him and let him kiss me one more niqht , i will be happy . im totally missinq him so much , i thouqht that i could just let him qo but i cant do that . because i know that still qot hope . so i qot to hold on and never let qo first . when time reach , i really qot to let qo even thouqh i cant let qo but i also qot to let qo . useless if i keep hold on larhs , still qot other ppl want me derhs . but i want him only . im so stoopiid larhs . i just need ppl peii me awhile and nobody was there for me . haiis ! idk what to do , i msq them and they never replied me . sheena was lost at this moment , and nobody want help me . why must they treat me like this ?? i feel that i now very weak liiao , i cant hold on liiao . i qoinq to fall down liiao and nobody come and help me . once i fall down and idk i could stand up aqain or not . idk what to do now . im tired liiao and what to do ? i cant breathe liiao , i qoinq to suffer aqain liiao . this time round is 5 years , im sufferinq so lonq . leave it now , be like this larhs . haiis !! may time stop at the moment when i was happy ? i just want the time stop at where i was happy that time . time always pass so fast , makinq me forqet what is happy liiao . where is my happiness ?? i couldn't be happy liiao . i always carryinq a fake smile on me and i was just actinq that im happy but i wasn't happy . *fake smile ! why thinqs always happen to me and my family derhs ?? could all this tinqs just stop mar ?? i really want lead a happy life and not a sad life . i just want remember all the happy moment happen only larhs .

LOST !

2008-04-04T02:09:00.002+08:00

i was totally lost and i could not find the way out at all , i still stuck at the place where he leave . i really dont wanna leave in the darkness anymore , is really very painful . you wont know what im doinq now . you happy is enouqh liiao , i wont be happy since the date you leave . you makinq me sufferinq and makinq me so love you that much but you wont do the same thinqs as me derhs . i was day dreaminq that you could be there for me when i needed you . do you know that i dream that you will beside me when we take bus , you will kiss my pain away , you huq me like you do , you say you will be there for me and bla bla . i was hopinq that you could say or do all this to me riqht now . im lost !! could i just stop lovinq you ?? could i stop breathinq at this moment ?? thinq happeninq nowadays , i couldnt pretend nothinq happen at all . i qot to believe it , i cant escape from the fact liiao . will anyone be there when i needed them ?? i now need a shoulder to cry on and someone could let me huq tiqht . who will know what will happen this few month or year qoinq on ?? i cant take it anymore , i have enouqh of it liiao . the pain wont be erase it unless i could really let it qo , my qan mummy know that i could not forqet about him at all . how i can just forqet all the thinqs happeninq ?? is already 3 years of fallinq in love with him , this 3 years i was totally thinkinq of him badly in my heart and i could not stop thinkinq of him . everythinqs that i do make me remind of him in my heart even thouqh i cry because of him , sometimes i out of sudden emo and i dont know why im emo-inq out of sudden at all . i thouqht that i was too tired or what but the true is that i was thinkinq of him that moment only . i could pretend that im happy outside but my inside who know ?? i always carryinq a fake smile on my face that just want show ppl that im happy all the way . i tryinq to be myself and chanqe myself from qood to worse but cant . i can be rude to you but i wont be rude until badly larhs . i just tryinq to have fun only but the time was totally foolinq with me . why i cant find him ?? i just hope to see him outside only . once i see him , maybe i will qive up or what larhs . be sinqle so lonq and all i stead with was just to cover up all the unhappy thinq only and i never serious in those relationship . sinqle was just my life only , who qonna love me like before ?? who qonna care about me like before ?? who qonne takecares of me like before ?? who qonna to dote me like before ?? who qonna to beside me when i needed them like before ?? who qonna to be that person ?? who ?? who ?? nobody could do that to me at all . i cant feel the love , care from anyone at all . all care me but i cant feel . i really cant feel anythinq from you quys . prove to me that you all really bother about me . i just find that im leave behind when i was alone and i cant find anyone to peii me sms or what at all . my phone always silent derhs , like nobody will msq me or what . when im totally bored , i want sms ppl but nobody reply me at all nor nobody will call back aqain . what the point to take handphone larhs , nobody will sms me and nobody will call me derhs . my phone always dead derhs . forqet it larhs . i should use 1o cent phone larhs . 1o cent phone better larhs , nobody will find me or sms me . haiis !!! let it be larhs . dont want post liiao . im TIRED !!! need to rest liiao .

im just totally in love with that person and im hopinq that he could see this bloq now . but he wont be available to see it , or he wont bother to see it larhs . forqet it man . Linq was so UNWANTED !

change alot !

2008-03-31T02:29:00.002+08:00

did i chanqe ?? i dont find it that i have chanqe larhs . someone told me that i hanq out with my qan mummy and i become her liiao ?? wtf larhs . cant be lorhs . if i hanq with who then im who larhs ?? then i hanq with my parent then i become my parent larhs ?? bullshit larhs , i didnt chanqe at all . just that thinqs is happeninq in my life and i cant forever lean on someone to help me derhs . i qot to qrow up and be myself derhs . just stop sayinq that i chanqe larhs , i will know myself well derhs . is you find that i chanqe because of the way that i told you , you are totally wronq larhs . im always that sheena larhs . if i really chanqe , i wont haven told to you or what larhs . i will just walk away and act as i dont know you . is what i will do only , if you think that im cold shoulder you then sorry larhs . i dont want so many thinqs now , i need to let qo first . i have been carry alot of unhappiness thinq in my life and is time to let qo and let myself be more freedom liiao . i have suffer enouqh then everyone larhs , i really beinq hurted so much liiao . is already 3 years liiao and i keep thinkinq of him larhs . this past 3 years , i never really enjoy at all and i always have a fake smile on my face derhs . is time to chanqe myself to a person that nobody know me derhs . i qot to silent down liiao , i wont disturb any one of you liiao . i also wont contact some of them , i just contact a few ppl only . i dont want qet into any trouble or what liiao . i just want TOTALLY SILENT DOWN only , beinq silent down because qot reason derhs . not i want silent down jiiu silent down larhs horhs . is really somethinqs happeninq larhs then i need to silent down only larhs , after that , maybe i will contact you all aqain larhs . i wont totally forqet all of my friends who have treat me qood larhs . for those who treat me bad or what then really sorry larhs , I WONT TREAT YOU AS FRIENDS LIIAO SINCE YOU TREAT ME BAD MAR THEN IS TIME FOR ME TO TREAT THE WAY THAT YOU TREAT ME LARHS . LET YOU KNOW WHAT IS CALLED AS FRIENDS LARHS . IF DONT KNOW WHAT IS TRUE FRIENDS ARE THEN YOU CAN GO AND DIE LARHS . for those who treat me qood and i will treat you qood too . i dont like ppl who just act to treat me qood only larhs . those like to act , please kindly just FCUK OFF larhs . somethinqs to let you all know is that i have suffer this few months or years liiao , dont anqry with me when i yell to you or what larhs . after 1 april maybe i will be EMO or what larhs . i cant swear that i can be happy when i was out with you quys , dont blame me if i mood swinq out of sudden larhs . is really somethinqs happen to me when i mood swinq , i cant tell you all about it larhs . is a secret to me . im really very tired of beinq a qood person liiao . ppl always say that hao ren mei hao bao , really that beinq a qood person always beinq bully derhs . i dont want beinq bully liiao larhs . i want be a bad person can mar ?? tireds of it liiao . after 1 april then i will post . i not meant to scold anyone who read my bloq or what larhs . i just want say the fact that thinqs happen in my life larhs .